Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Amy27079 10/04/2017

I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for 10 years. I feel like I've been trying so hard and it doesnt really seem worth it anymore. I've tried 5 different meds and I've had horrible side effects with each one and had to stop them. I could keep trying others I guess but I'm scared of feeling worse on them because I don't know if I can handle that again. Ive gone to therapy for 6 years and even though I love my therapist it doesn't seem to be helping. I know all of the things to do (and do them) and I still feel lost and empty. I use to self harm but I quit years ago and even though I'm proud of that, I still miss it tremendously. I have so many good things in my life. I just feel like I don't fit in it. I feel like a failure, like I'm always in the way. Everyone I talk to assures me that I'm not but I can't shake the feeling. I just always feel bad. I don't know how much longer I can keep this up.

darleneromancoaching 10/04/2017

With my little knowledge and experience, I would suggest you carry out some counseling session. It helps a lot.

Amy27079 10/04/2017

As I said, I've been doing counseling for 6 years. But thank you.

MJ1964 10/04/2017

I feel a lot like you do. Every med I've tried makes me worse. I've tried counseling which doesn't seem to work either. I am so very tired.
Wishing for a cure for you and I and everyone else who suffers with this crazy illness.

sharaninmd 10/04/2017

I am sorry for what you are experiencing and that the meds have too many side effects for you. You are not a failure, I'm sure you do fit in with your friends and don't get in the way. Those negative thoughts are what your brain is telling you, but they are not true. I have felt the same way many times. I have struggled with depression and anxiety since I was a small child. In regard to your therapist, although you love her as a person, you say she isn't helping you. You should keep searching for a therapist you trust and feel that they are helping you. Sometimes you need to go to more than one in order to find the one who is right for you.

Ann93 10/05/2017

Sorry to hear that you are suffering with depression and anxiety. You should feel very positive about your decision to start a self-care plan. Have you ever tried genetic testing to find out which medications are the best for you to take? There are practitioners that offer the testing to find medications that you can process. Have you considered volunteering with an organization that you are interested in? Volunteering offers the opportunity to share your talents with others. Keep exploring new ways to heal. Don't give up.

Amy27079 10/05/2017

That's a good point about the genetic testing! I agree with what you said about volunteering. I'm a nurse and that gives me an outlet because it makes me feel a little better to give something to others.

Ann93 10/12/2017

Volunteering has been so helpful for me. I tutor ESL and really enjoy meeting my students and helping them improve their English. Nursing is a very caring profession. I always felt that they were my angels when I was in the hospital. It is nice of you to help others when you work!

Amy27079 10/15/2017

I tried the 5htp, it didn't really help much. I've been doing better though. I'm still looking for a new therapist.

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