i am going through a rough and horrible time right now, yet i have rarely revealed it to anyone for fear of harsh words and judgment. i haven't even spoken to my mother about what is going on because i am afraid of hearing the same old "advice."

even the times i have come here, i have yet to find anyone lately who is honestly willing to give the effort to really listen and offer support and insight they have - because it all sounds the same, it is what takes the least amount of thought, and i have tried it and it doesn't work! same with the few people i have confided in in the past in real life.

but what does that leave me with? nothing. i am 100% dealing with a huge life changing situation with absolutely no support from anyone. i don't reach out cause then i start feeling worse by the things that person says.

i do not need tough love right now. i am not stupid! i am not a child! i am a smart woman who is going through a rough time. i just want to guidance. i can't afford any professional kind.

i genuinely feel i am the lonliest person in the world right now