Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
havent posted anything on here in a while but things havent got no easier or better for me in all honesty. just had enough of this mental illness and depression fed up of the constant emptyness not having a clue who you are.. feeling the worlds against you in everyway possible.. just feels like im on the outside watching in all the time. does anyody else get this? like out of body experience? just feel as the days go on i lose more of myself. notice a little bit more of yourself missing as time goes on. i know being suicidal is very common with this illness.. emotionally unstable personality disorder. or borderline what ever you want to call it.. this pain to me feels like my best friend in a way because its always there where ever you go.. can anybody relate to any of these problems in here? i hope everybody on here is doing well and ok. i have read most of the posts on here and just want to say to you all im thinking of you.. take care jake.
There are a few things that I wish to say. Firstly, you are definitely not alone in what you feel. Though, I call mine the 'inner demon' or 'the abyss'. It has the power to grow and take me over completely. Sometimes it happens slowly, like a morbid dark cloud that takes over my soul. Other times it is an insatiable bloodlust to destroy any hope I have for a happy life. (It may seem a little over-dramatic, but I am a writer at heart, so yeah....)
My point being, I know that it is part of my illness. I used to carry my 'demon' around like a security blanket. Why? Because I felt I didn't deserve anything better than pain. Then one day I opened my eyes and the hope I had for a better life was so intense that I couldn't ignore it.
I suppose I want you to know that there is hope. You may feel like you have lost so much of yourself, but the good thing is that you have the power deep within you to fill those 'holes' with the person you wish to become. It takes time and hard work, but you deserve to be happy. Don't let that hope slip away from you.
If you would like to chat, just let me know. Be safe and remember; these thoughts are part of your illness, not a part of you. You can beat this.
*hugs*
BlueBella