When we're going through a hard time, a lot of the time our family doesn't understand or know how to be supportive. You are not a burden though, they just don't know how to help you and wish they could. It's hard to see someone they love in so much pain.

Dear Chantilly, First let me assure you that feelings aren't ridiculous. They are real. Feelings do not always reflect a true picture of what is going on though. They are a cry of the heart. You cannot always trust your feelings. You say that you are feeling unwanted and a burden to others. I have felt that way before too, but I found that those feelings can change with circumstances. When you feel loved and valued, you have a whole different perspective. You need to hang in there until things change. You asked your parents for help. What kind of help are you wanting from them? People don't always have the wisdom or insight to know what someone else needs or how they can help. Have you tried calling out to God? He is the One Who has all strength and comfort. He loves and values you. He made you unique and special for Himself. He makes a promise. He says to call to Him and He will answer you.

Hi, I understand what your feeling that feeling you feel like your better without your friends and family or anyone .I feel that way too.
But someone had told me always remember that somebody does love you no matter what.

Hi. I have a transgender child who suffers from depression, Delusions, Hallucinations, and physcosis. He says a lot of the same things. Your feelings matter,and are real. If you feel that you need help please,ask your parents to see a counselor, and maybe a physciatrist if needed. If you are feeling suicidal and they won't listen olease,call 911. If they Don't want to get you a counselor please see your school counselor and talk to them. They may be able to help you. You matter! Your feelings matter!

Im on here in panic. Im trying to understand whats going on. Im back in the "do i stay or do i go" and it frightens me. I literally cant coz it'll fuck my kids up but alive....i feel im ruining their lives anyway. I need to find ways to delay me going.....im overwhelmed by everything, i cant elaborate without going into an even darker place (if poss) ive spent most of my life wanting to die but a few people love me and even the thought of hurting them hurts me intensly. I feel everything intensly. Are they panic attacks? Am i suicidal? Am i bipolar? My doc says aniexty and depression, this is it forever, how do i re programme my mind? Can i? Is the damage already done?
Your post was the first i could relate to. Not the parent part but ptsd from my childhood for sure which i mask with meds and weed. I want a detox but will that end me? How do i get clean? Ive tried lowering any caffeine as i really dont need to be anymore hyper than i cant cope with (weed to slow me down, block my mind, sleep and eat. Im reliant & scared to detox) im rambling but all this is coming from somewhere.

Im posting in the wrong place. Im irrational. Over aware. Ocd? How do i stop this head fuck? What if meds and weed free (mainly weed) im still living each day like im failing everything....i am, not over reacting. Over thinking yes but wtf