Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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JStar7227
JStar7227

I'm alone in my world I hide my deepest pains I smile outside but once my door shuts I lose control and the tears flow heavily I feel like nobody cares anymore nobody wants me around nobody loves me I feel like an outsider everywhere I go  I'm only 18 and I've gone towards suicide once now I just drink to stop my suffering but on the nights I don't drink I cry myself to sleep I don't eat anything I run away to escape idk what to do anymore

Jersey_of_Oz
Jersey_of_Oz
it's time to start being honest. you can't do this alone. you need to be able to look at yourself in a real way to discover what you need to make it through. you are going to need help, because no one can make it through alone. you are a beautiful person. you were made with intent. you are worthy to be loved. We care about you.
nightingale77
nightingale77
Hi @JStar7227, sorry that you are going through so much at this moment. Echoing what @Jersey_of_Oz, acknowledging that you cannot do this on your own is the first step towards healing. I can understand when you said you were smiling on the outside but crying bitterly inside. I know what it means to be unable to feel and able to relate to anything that surrounds you at this moment.

You are loved and you are not alone. Members on this platform are here for a purpose. We are here to serve and journey with each other. Don't be afraid to unload here as I believe this forum is safe and members are encouraging (tis my experience so far). Not sure if you are talking to a counsellor or a therapist. If not, might be worth considering seeing one. If not, do feel free to write down your thoughts here. Press on. Praying for you. God Bless!