im tired of feeling this way. i'm tired of living in black and white and the only color i see is the red from my arms when i pick up my razor. home doesn't feel like home. school feels like a constant battle of trying not to cry. i've worn away all of my happiness. people ask constantly if i'm okay. the answer is i'm not. i haven't been. i want to die every night so i won't have to deal with the stress of school, sports, choir, family, friends, relationships, etc.