@Alexanna, since you asked, my faith more than anything else helps me overcome my depression, anxiety, and fears. But if that is not something you are open to, you may want to take a therapeutic approach in the area of support groups. Depression and anxiety are only symptoms of deeper issues. Get at the root and the depression and anxiety goes or becomes highly manageable. If you are interested here is a place that you can start. http://anxietynetwork.com/

There are like 50 things you can do. Some of the things I do on especially bad days, like today: try not to isolate by participating on an online group, write down what you are feeling, refrain from sugary treats, go for a run or take a break and walk outside. You can do a 15 minute yoga routine guided by youtube, set up an appt to get your Vitamin D level tested, call up a trusted friend, etc. Today I set up an appt with the pdoc because the last few months have been difficult. Might need to revisit the medication situation. Been trying a lot of different things to feel well, but still not feeling well much of the tine. What are your coworkers scaring you about and why?

They just jump out and scare me. I get so focused on a task that i don't see them coming. I didn't realize my anxiety was bad again. Getting hit on today really pointed that out to me. I need to make an appointment to visit my therapist but I can't afford the copay right now. Therapy/new meds are a luxury .

I'm getting vitamin b deficiency vibes from you. Not sure why. Are you one of those skinny, petite girls who don't eat? Because there's no quicker way to become completely anxious than to not eat. It's a thing, I'm sure. Even drink one jar of stout a day. Just something to get the vitamins in. Yeah I know stout's disgusting. You can have guinness if you prefer. :D

It's really cool that you have such loving workmates by the way. :D So nice. Get a nerf gun. When they freak you out, shoot them.

I have been dieting. I need to lose weight. My family has been known to have a lot of healthy problems as they get older and I'm trying to prevent that. I've been on and off antidepressants for years. I probably need back on but I'm really embarrassed that I can't handle it on my own.

I would love to shoot them with a nerf gun but I don't move fast enough to get them before they run off and some of them are managers lol.

"I probably need back on but I'm really embarrassed that I can't handle it on my own."

THERE is the problem. It is a clinical fact that one cannot treat their own depression. Getting right to the point .... get to your doctor and get MEDICIALLY treated because you CAN'T handle it on your own.

There's another problem. I cannot afford the copays. It's $15-20 that I came spare. It's gas money.

Also I have talked to people that deal with their depression without medical help. It is possible.

people have been unlocking their own depression for millennia. Tens of thousands of years. You can do it alone if you have to - but you have to figure out how. It's a journey.... like watching Krull, there's dark forests and spiders.

Nutrition is really important. Sleep and I found emotional processing time vital. And going through each thing. Just getting through them all. It's like the old saying: how do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.

Everything we experience is something we can fully process and learn from. I used to try to describe it as a jigwas puzzle. One of those really big ones. Of the sea or a wave or something. Every piece of that puzzle hard work to place. But every piece, once you place it? Integrated, assimilated. Painless and simply adds to a picture of reality that grows and grows and can surprise you.

Every emotional experience is a jigsaw puzzle piece. everything you learn is a jigsaw puzzle piece. A small part of a much larger whole that has to be placed correctly to get a good big picture.

I had a nervous breakdown: that's my jigsaw puzzle, put together wrong and badly, getting smashed to start again. And guess what I had to do after that? i had to start again. From the beginning. I was like a little child, every fact was up for grabs...

I have got through a lot of it in the last six years, and it's an easier way to live. I am clearer and I have better understanding. I've put it together better this time. It makes much more sense now.

That as a metaphor was probably really hard to follow. I find this stuff really hard to describe. But humans have functioned in certain ways for 10,000 yrs and we are trying to change the rules on them now: we can't adapt that fast.

So if you don't have the money for the co-pay, perhaps just accept your human reality, and see this all as part of the deal, and take each event and give yourself enough time and emotional space to mull it over, and assimilate it.