Hi dontworryaboutme. I'm so very sorry that you are dealing with an avalanche of tragedies in your life and regarding your family and friends. Does anyone know about the attacks on you? I would consider telling someone close to me that I deem trustworthy and will be tight lipped. It's nothing to be ashamed of. You aren't at fault. But it is a private thing to deal with and you don't need an inconsiderate person making life even harder. I guess you just joined and that's a great choice. When you're alone and it gets bad try the suicide line - 1800 suicide. If you aren't in therapy, see out a respected therapist in your area that accepts your insurance. Start with your insurance companies to find one. I'm so sorry all this is going on. But I'm glad you are here. Keep coming and keep talking.

this is a time when you need to look after your self ...you have been through so much ..and it needes to come out .....if you are not..seeing a counclour or phicatrist than you schould realy think about that ....because whan we keep things inside they have to come out one way or a nother one day or a nother .....I if you want to get healthy you need to look after you ..first ....you can't help any one till you help your self .......this is a good place for you to come and talk ..here others talk ...there is no judgment here ....I will keep you in my prayers ..God bless

Hi there, words failed me. You have gone through so much. I'm very sorry that the amount of tragedies that you have gone through are really beyond anyone. Thank you for your courage to come forward and share. It's a sign of courage not weakness. We are here to journey with you.

Echo-ing the encouragers, if you have not seen a counselor or a therapist yet, please do consider seeing one. Vocalising it may help you to cope better. Meanwhile, please keep your writing coming in. We are here and we are listening. Prayed for you.

What a lousy life you've had....best thing for you to do is keep on repeating to yourself, try to brainwash yourself, that it's all uphill from here.

Lots of suicides/deaths on my father's side, so that I grew up without any relatives on his side, and scumbag relatives on my mom's side; my parents were lowlifes too.

Take very good care of yourself, starting now, be selfish, you come first---you don't want to end up at age 58, like me.

Good luck.

You have lived through many horrific events in your life. I am sorry for the loss of family and friends and for how you have suffered. It isn't your job to take care of everybody. You need to put yourself first. If you are not already seeing a psychiatrist and/or therapist, I would suggest that you do. a

I am sorry. Something happened in my last reply. A therapist can help you deal with the tragic things that have happened to you. In regard to being in an abusive relationship, I would recommend that you get out of it as soon as possible. You do not deserve to be treated in any abusive way. You are worthy and deserving of so much more. If you stay in the relationship, the abuse will only get worse and you could be badly harmed. Please continue to talk with us on this site. Message me anytime.