Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Last night I thought I was pretty okay. Nothing major happened. I did get some answers I think on this whole situation I am going through. But when I started to go to bed I began to really consider suicide. Of finding a bridge and jumping off. Of how i need to add an heir to my bank account. Of how I would park the car and leave notes. BUT I DON"T WANT TO! I cried. I screamed. I cried. The only thing keeping me from doing it is how would the boys handle it. Then I begin to think the family is right, that the boys would be better off without me. I can't take the fighting anymore. I did nothing to deserve this. I cannot go on like this. I have a therapist appointment tomorrow. Gotta make it till then...I have to make it through one more screwed up night. (cry)
The little ones know though, they are very intuitive.
I also struggle with leaving the legacy of self annihilation, not a pretty thought to me...Your little ones need you as mine need me. Its not that we need to help them that bothers me it is the fact that if I am not here wolf's will come in... and that my freind is my family legacy...
Hang in there DJ.... Michael
imagine what it would be like if your mom committed suicide while growing up.
if you kill urself, ur children would be worse off. they will be emotionally scarred for life. i don't care how "incompetent" you think you are as a parent, but killing urself is the worst thing for your kids! they'll probably blame themselves.
so hang in there! think of your kids...