Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Hello, I have had depression for six years so far. For three years I felt depressed and suicidal. I tried to ignore it. Then, I got sick of living. I started self-harm and then I tried to commit suicide. My mom found out because I told her about this. She wanted me yo see a counselor.
I went to see a counselor. Then, I would vent to my counselor about what I'm going through for about a year. I still didn't get better. My counselor suggested for me to find a psychiatrist. I did and I was diagnosed with depression. I was prescribed paroxetine. That didn't work. So I was prescribed to take arippiprozale along with the paroxetine. Two more years went by.
That didn't work. I stopped meeting with my psychiatrist because I frustrated that the pills weren't working and I still wanted to die. I told my counselor about this. He said to remain positive. He believed my depression will go away. So, he wanted me to hold on until it goes away. He wanted me to practice gratitude.
I got a notebook to write down what I'm grateful for. I did that for years. I still feel the same way. Being positive and hoping for my depression to go away isn't working. I still feel like killing myself every waking moment.
I still feel sick of living. I also stubbornly don't believe my depression will go away ever. What if my depression doesn't go away? Then what? I e-mailed my coumselor that being positive usn't working. I e-mailed him to ask what should I do if the depression doesn't go away. He didn't respond for six days. He wasn't available when I called his phone.
So I came here. I registered and had set up an account as SomeDepressedGuy. I don't know. I didn't know what else to do. So I came here type out my problems because there's nothing I can do. I'm sick of this. I'm sick of breathing and eating and drinking for nothing.
The only reason I'm still alive at all because I was always too scared to kill myself. I chickened out over all of the times I attempted suicide. I'm alive because of fear and not anything positive or inspirational or for anyone else. Not because of the counseling or the pills or because of gratitude. I'm alive and perpetually unhappy because of fear. I hate myself for not having the guts to kill myself. If you bothered to read this, thanks.
I can feel your depression a bit from what you wrote. But please don’t harm yourself in any way, you will just end up farther going the other way. And do not ever think of killing yourself because if you do then nothing, you will miss out on what cold have been a good life. Instead, focus on a healthy, enjoyable life.
You did not really give a lot of clue as to where your depression might be coming from. For some people it is relationships, job or financial. Are you a student or are you working? Why do you say that you are sick of living? You need to break this cycle. Its like drowning, the more you sink the less anyone can help you but when you start to swim, help can be nearby. Instead of stubbornly believing that your depression will not go away, believe and convince yourself that you can overcome it.
It's not always as easy as it sounds to get help and move forward.
I would say that one small thing you might want to try is to come here and real or post every day. There is a lot of support from people who understand
what you are going through.
I used to harm myself and attempt suicide all of the time, but I stopped for good. I chickened out of all of those attempts because I was too scared to kill myself. I stopped because I accepted that I was too scared to kill myself. So I guess the only reason I'm alive is because of fear and not anything positive.
I am currently a student. I started feeling depressed because I felt overwhelmed by school and college.
I said I was sick of living because the only reason I'm alive is because I was too scared to kill myself. I couldn't even keep up with my college work. More responsibilities would just keep piling up. I wanted to die so I wouldn't have to deal with it all anymore. Thank you for reading.
Thank you. I intend to keep posting on this site in the future.
That was your biggest mistake. 'stipping' seeing your BEST trained, educated, and qualified resource was a mistake.
I realize that now. I'm going to make an appointment with him again