Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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susie3g 04/26/2007

I go to the doctor next Wednesday to assess my medication. They WILL change my prescription! I'm half-tempted to tell them if they don't change it, then I'm gonna kill the next person who leaves the cabinet doors open in my house. Maybe then they will see that it's not helping. But with my luck, I'll just end up in a padded room with shock therapy treatments. And it wouldn't be pretty if I ever got out. I am so angry all the time. Depression? I'm not so sure. I think it's something else. I am happy, then something triggers my mood.... and noone wants to be around me. I can't blame them. I don't even want to be around me either. When I was depressed, I understood it, at least. But this rage inside me... it's really scary. What is wrong with me? Why can't I just be normal?

deleted_user 04/26/2007

I think rage and depression can go hand in hand. When I'm at my least strong, I experience it as depression, but when I get a little better....watch out.

I also get that "happy until triggered." A couple months ago I started looking at some Anger Mgmt classes and stuff because I was alarmed by how quickly I could go from 0 to 60, if you know what I mean. It's like staying in that "happy" place takes all your inner energy, so that when an obstacle asserts itself, I didn't have additional resources to remain calm and maintain my overall mood.

I took a mindfulness meditation class, and it really helps. Maybe just b/c I now MAKE the time I need to stay centered and rested.

deleted_user 04/26/2007

Yes, it can be scary to feel as though you have no controll over your emotions. I have experienced the same phenom as Finally. At times throughout my many medication changes, even the medication itself made the anger worse. But I also found that my impatience for the meds to get into my system and start working right made me more irratable as well. have a hug and try to hang in there we have been there too!

susie3g 04/26/2007

This is getting crazy! The road worker yesterday held a sign that read "SLOW", even though he's standing in the middle of my lane. I proceed to get out of my car and tell him.."Do you want me to stop or do you want me to slow down?" I'm assuming you want me to stop since you're standing in my way, but I can run over you if you actually want me to just slow down." That was such a mean, horrible thing to say to that man. And I'm really not like that. Really, I'm not. Just lately, the little things make me go crazy. I'm scared. I haven't been in a fight since high school, but at the rate I'm going, it could get bad.

deleted_user 04/26/2007

what medication are you on?

susie3g 04/26/2007

Remeron and Desyrel are what I'm taking now.

deleted_user 04/26/2007

I have not tried either of those, I'm currently on effexor xr, and its OK. But for me, Wellbutrin XL made me the biggest B@#$H in the world, I would snap over nothing and the slightest little noise would drive me nuts!! ((((HUGS)))) Sorry you are going through a trying time. how long have you been on those meds?

susie3g 04/26/2007

I've been taking those since September, 2006. I didn't take them regularly for awhile cause I have to get up early for work, like 2:30 a.m., and I was afraid I'd oversleep. I've been taking them regular for about 2 months now. And look!!! I really wanna just scream at the register lady for not saying, "Thank you, and have a nice day." It's just crazy all the things that make me mad now.

deleted_user 04/26/2007

do yourself a favor, take a minute and regroup, come up with a plan, a way to help yourself feel better, (mine was taking my children to a friends house and going to the emergency room) make a grattitude list..............start with i'm thankfull for this site and someone who shares some of my problems

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