I go to the doctor next Wednesday to assess my medication. They WILL change my prescription! I'm half-tempted to tell them if they don't change it, then I'm gonna kill the next person who leaves the cabinet doors open in my house. Maybe then they will see that it's not helping. But with my luck, I'll just end up in a padded room with shock therapy treatments. And it wouldn't be pretty if I ever got out. I am so angry all the time. Depression? I'm not so sure. I think it's something else. I am happy, then something triggers my mood.... and noone wants to be around me. I can't blame them. I don't even want to be around me either. When I was depressed, I understood it, at least. But this rage inside me... it's really scary. What is wrong with me? Why can't I just be normal?
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