Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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bbarton6161 09/24/2014

When I am doing okay for a day or two I begin fretting about the next mental crash. I analyze all thoughts searching for a sign of anything that will trigger a fall. Maybe I am causing myself to think negative thoughts by comparing what I am currently thinking with what I consider to be bad thinking. Then once I think one of those thoughts I can't unthink it. That leads to more negative thoughts and then before I know what the hell is happening I find myself deep down in the dark place. I wish I knew how to break that cycle. I am so terrified of going there that I worry about it all the time. Does anyone relate to this or is it just meBB

survivor69 09/24/2014

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Friend19 09/24/2014

Yes I know what you mean. And it keeps me up at night, keeps me from focusing on my business, I can't clean, take out the trash, cook, god I can't even focus on a television show for 30 mins. I get like ants in my pants syndrome, the thoughts just rattle me up and make me extremely manic, just exploding everything in my face. A self made spout of darkness. I can also do it the opposite, and often do. My trouble with that is I exceed a normal happy place, tipping the scale into some kind of hyper active and equally exhausting "fake" happy. Some times events cause me to crash, or jump, sometimes it's a person, or object that triggers me. But I will be honest, most of the time it's my own fucked up head.

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oneinacrowd 09/24/2014

Hey BB.

I am not that well versed in all the two's and fro's of depression only having been suffering to any great extent on the last couple of years.

I know exactly what you are talking about though. I have have had the exact same worry cycle, or at least that is what it feels like. I recently had the worst crash I have experienced. When I surfaced I was constantly checking how I was and what I was thinking because the crash scared me silly. I even thought I was working up to another crash (started getting scared) but I started to focus on work and it all calmed down. I have not crashed again yet and it still scares me every day. Also though I am adding up the days and focusing on them as something good and positive.

I think there must be a self perpetuating cycle there. Still figuring it out myself though.

Al the best.

seekit 09/25/2014

I don't have that but I feel for you! Just sent a prayer for you.

Desigol1979 09/25/2014

Normally I find myself more productive at nighttime.

I don't have as many mental crashes as I used to, though.

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