When the storm is too much? When the storm is too much & you just want to go to sleep & not wake up. When you dread going to the mailbox because it is full of past due bills & overdue medical bills that are in the thousands of dollars, and you barely have any money to get your medications & you just don't want to read the bills. So, I finally go to the mailbox after not checking it for over a week, only to find more medical bills that I can't pay. My head hurts so badly. I've taken some meds for it but it still hasn't kicked in & that was over 2 hours ago. I've been crying which hasn't helped my situation and it's two days from July & that's another month of more bills with little to no income & in jeopardy of losing everything. This situation is so sad & I just want to go to sleep & not wake up. The storm is too much. I don't want to face another day of chronic pain & hopelessness. I'm not saying I want to take my life, the best way I know how to put it is I just want to give it away like a gift to somebody who can appreciate it! I think about lots of people who wish they had just one more day, or people fighting for their lives because they're surrounded by loved ones & they want to live life. I'm not surrounded by loved ones & I can't think of one person who really would be impacted by my absence. I barely get phone calls, text messages, emails, letters, cards, or visits. I probably get these things once a year (if at all) & that is usually on my birthday which happens to be the last month of the year. Is that supposed to make me feel like I'm loved by anyone???? The storm is too much!