Depression Support Group
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I see people looking happy and living moments in their lives that I’ve missed out on or am currently missing out on (being a teen and having both parents alive, just in general people connected with God (faith is very important to me and I feel far from Him right now), people who are just content, etc.) and it feels like someone stabbing me in the chest. I was doing better today, but seeing these things recently hurts so freaking bad. And I feel awful about it...I should be glad others are happy. But instead seeing it feels incredibly agonizing at times.
A couple of things come to mind. By your post, you seem to judge yourself by what you see in others. The problem with that is you don't see others at all times.
Learn and live by this: The past cannot be changed. The future cannot be arranged. The only thing we have control of is this moment. We can expect a lot from the future ... but they are only expectations.
There is a POSSIBILITY you are having some CLINICAL depression. If so, you MUST consult a doctor to find out. SOME causes of clinical depression are physiological ... thyroid function for example.
As a teen, your body is developing and you may be experiencing some TEMPORARY hormonal issues. ONLY A DOCTOR can conclude what I am talking about.
Whatever is going on ... your mental state is obviously bothering you ... teen depression is WAY off the charts today. We live in so much uncertainty, .. just about EVERYONE is subject to depression.
The best thing for you, in my opinion, is to describe exactly what you have posted to a medical doctor. Some diagnoses are in order.
Clinical depression IS treatable. Without treatment, it can become deadly.