Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Today I woke up smoked a cigarette and then watched tv, and eventually went back to sleep. I sleep and dream of a better life to avoid the thoughts of my reality, which makes me want to break down and cry. I have lost my entire life, money, possessions, home, clothes, everything, and I am only 23 and still in college. I feel so empty inside like this is the end of the world for me. My friends are so successful and I am just sad and depressed because I feel I can't amount to anything because I am so far behind everyone. I really try to think of the things to be grateful for besides my life. I don't even know if my health is fully stable. It's so much hurt inside me right now that I can't even organize it into words right now. I will continue this after I finish crying.
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Hey dude I completely understand where you are right now. I too feel that way. I feel like a failure. I haven't worked in 6 months and the only thing I am qualified for is the very thing I hate so much. I used to make 60k a year now I am broke and starting over. I just came back from a movie and I still cannot seem to pick myself up. I feel like drinking but if I do, it will counter act with my meds and make it worse....
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Do you feel this way all the time or do you think you might be going through some "situational depression?" I know I have felt that way before and it was really serious depression and then at other times it was "just a phase." Life is always going to be one thing after another, I guess we just have to get used to it. Comparing yourself to others is never going to make you happy, that I do know. I can always find someone who has more than I do...then people tell me to think of all those who have less and I get even more depressed. Stick with it man, times change and things change, hopefully for you for the better. I hope you feel better...really.
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Kyle, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Does your school have mental health care available to students at low or no cost? I think you need to talk to a therapist, and perhaps you might need medication. You shouldn't have to go through this alone. Welcome to DS...stay and talk to us. (((HUGS))) (p.s. Most of the chatter is on the main Depression board.)
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You just summed up exactly how I feel right now. And how I've felt for a long time. It's a bitch, isn't it? My only advice is to stay away from the booze. It'll only make everything worse.
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Thank you all for your replies...I actually feel a lot better today. After reading and posting on here I felt better. I just cannot really share my feelings with people around me because I feel they patronize me. They really have no idea where I am at because the symptoms are not visible to them. But it is nice when people who really understand me reply... I am having a better day today but I still feel empty...I have not idea what I am longing for. That is my biggest frustration. The feeling of always wanting something but not having a clue what it is..,.how is everyone else today?
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