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I am trying to turn off the day but it keeps going and going.
I feel bad that I am geting so lazy and weak minded and Im not
sure why? I seem to have many drinks and sleep pills to turn things
off at the end of the day and that doesnt work well. I cant figure out
why I am like this. It cant be from just losing my job? I seem to have kept
people away from me for a long time and its catching up with me I think.
I am a 51 yr old man and feel like I am 5. I want it to go away
but I'm sure it wont if I am lazy like I must be. I think being unhappy
is lazy but I cant fix it. I have no one around and no job and no way
out of this hole. I have not had a doctor in about 15 yrs. I am lazy
and I don't wish to take up folks time being silly but I am stuck.
No need for any replies to this stuff.
This is the thing that I think is most promising about your situation.
“Our Saviour’s meaning, when He said, He must be born again and become a little child that will enter in the Kingdom of Heaven is deeper far than is generally believed. It is not only in a careless reliance upon Divine Providence, that we are to become little children, or in the feebleness and shortness of our anger and simplicity of our passions, but in the peace and purity of all our soul. Which purity also is a deeper thing than is commonly apprehended. For we must disrobe infant-like and clear; the powers of our soul free from the leaven of this world, and disentangled from men’s conceits and customs. Grit in the eye or yellow jaundice will not let a man see those objects truly that are before it. And therefore it is requisite that we should be as very strangers to the thoughts, customs, and opinions of men in this world, as if we were but little children. So those things would appear to us only which do to children when they are first born. Ambitions, trades, luxuries, inordinate affections, casual and accidental riches invented since the fall, would be gone, and only those things appear, which did to Adam in Paradise, in the same light and in the same colours: God in His works, Glory in the light, Love in our parents, men, ourselves, and the face of Heaven: Every man naturally seeing those things, to the enjoyment of which he is naturally born.”
http://www.philosophyforlife.org/thomas-traherne/
https://westernmystics.wordpress.com/2015/05/29/thomas-traherne/