It can be really hard for some parents to understand and be empathetic to their kid's problems sometimes, and that feels really bad. All anyone wants is to be heard and understood. You matter and your life is valuable. Your problems are important and your feelings are valid. Sometimes the most corageous thing you can do is make it through one more day. I encourage you to call a suicide hotline or text the crisis text line at 741741 for free anonymous help. You deserve kindness and support. The fact that you cut doesn't change any of that. You just need a little help right now and there's nothing wrong with that. Please consider reaching out and staying safe.

i am trying and i have been reaching out and that hot line i cant use because i use my moms phone at home right now I am at school

I'm so inspired by the fact that you are trying even though life is very difficult right now. The fact that you are trying speaks volumes about your character. I'm also glad to hear that you're safe at school. I can understand that it might feel hopeless right now especially since you have to use your mom's phone. I want you to know you're doing great. Would you consider talking a little bit to the school counselor? You really do deserve some support right now and I hate to think of you going through this alone.

I talk to him but he doesn't really understand where I am coming from he gives everyone excuses
as to why they do the things that they do that hurt me.

I understand how you feel. My sister and I both struggle with depression. My sister had spoken to my mother about getting help for her depression, and she thought it was a good idea. My mother tried to talk to my father about it, and he said that she was just looking for attention and that there was nothing seriously wrong with her. The last time I was as depressed as I am now, it took my dad and stepmom months before they actually got me any kind of help. Since it took them so long, I found my own ways of helping myself, so by the time they actually got me some help, I had already helped myself. They ended up paying money for therapy that I didn't even need anymore. That's why I'm afraid to ask for help from them now, because I know they'll take their precious time. People will never own up to hurting you, I've learned that. The way I helped myself before was that I just made up scenarios in my mind. I pictured them apologizing. I know it sounds stupid, and it might not even work for you, but it's worth a shot.

um thanks for the advice to hate myself bye

I think that unless we have been terrible, like killing dozens of people, it makes no sense to hate ourselves. I do get angry with myself (mostly when I lose or misplace something) but I try to stay away from saying that I hate myself.

Self reflection can be productive, but it can also take a lot of strength. If we can sort out why we think people don't like us, then we can decide if they are full of crap, or if we have some things about ourselves that we need to straighten out.

You are not alone in how you feel about things, and how you handle the stress of life. There is a path for you, we all have these paths, the path that leads from where we are to where we want to be.

Gentle hugs

thanks

Use that pain as motivation. I completely feel you, but we got this. It hurts like hell, but there are always better times. It just takes time and some work. Hang in there, fam. You're worth the effort.

I'm really sorry your in that much pain. I can completely understand. I have thought about it but never could do it. I also have been so depressed that I shut myself out from the world and stay in bed, not answering the phone, and hardly eating. Have you tried the crisis line through half of us? It's halfofus.org I believe. Take care sending strength your way.