Are you on any meds? Some of those can cause those thoughts. Honestly, so can being a teenager. I don't mean to make light, but if your preoccupation really disturbs you, it's time to talk to a professional, (much as I like to play one on these forums).

You have no sense of self worth. You feel alone, dislike things about yourself, dont think anyone cares about you. You need recognition. Try something new. Wear a shirt you have youve never worn. Wear your hair a different way. Find a girlfriend to go to a movie with. Make a bucket list and try to succeed and fi ishing some of them things. Take up some hobbies. Start running. Take up dog walking it has two beneifits could make money and spend time outside fresh air and some sun is an amazing mood lifter. Im here to listen. Erase them bad thoughts there no reason to want to be gone this world is more beautiful than you see it you just need to see the good part!!

Intrusive thoughts like those are difficult to deal with. Reading your post brings me back to how I felt throughout high school, imagining my own death in vivid detail. It's easy to become used to feeling that way, but it's important that you challenge those feelings and remind yourself that you deserve to live, or else those thoughts can take over everything and go out of control. It sounds like you have a great imagination. Perhaps you could channel that into something else, or into different kinds of fantasies.

Sweetie, you need help far bigger than this. Please talk to your parents or family member. You just have a wee illness right now and I promise you can get better and deal with this but you need to talk to a trusted adult and a professional
Thinking of you xx

Mya133 i used to do this. I was lonely and miserable. School was awful for me, my life was mostly awful till I was about 20. And then I was happy for a few years, and then had a bad marriage and now at 47 I'm having another shot. Older, wiser. less easily fooled.

I used to imagine my own death and lie in bed and cry my eyes out as I visualised nobody giving a tiny tiny stuff that I was gone. And when I had finished crying I realised that if nobody gave a tiny tiny stuff if I was gone, then bugger them I would live and spite the bastards. F#ck em I wasn't going to end my only shot at existence just to make their lives more convenient.

Being invisible is good. Because nobody notices that you are alone. There's only one thing worse than being that bullied kid that has no friends; and that's having everyone notice. Better to spend your lunch breaks in the library swotting at your books, and be put down as a swot, than be seen sitting out alone eating your sandwich, little johnny no-mates. In ten years, you won't give a shit that you went through this - and at least you got your homework done.

Just remember: the only people in the world who will care if you are gone are the ones you don't want to hurt. And the ones who want you gone or don't care either way won't be hurt by your passing. They'll laugh and make jokes about you.

But I do think it's good for us to visualise it. I think it's good for us to get that kind of pain out of ourselves. Cry it into a pillow and then burn the pillow. Emerge from that pain stronger, and more relaxed.

And just hang on in there. In ten years' time school will just be a distant horrible memory you are not obliged to revisit. I had some serious fun when I was 20. :D

I agree that you need to talk to your parents or another trusted adult right away. And no being invisible is not the goal, so please don't entertain that idea, You're only 15 so please get help right away.

No one wants to admit to being depressed let alone thinking of suicide. A sign of strength is reaching out for professional help. No matter what it takes, please do that. Gods blessings

Hi, I'm so sorry to hear that you are going through such difficult time as this moment and you are "invaded" by all the suicidal thoughts. Not only that, you have to cope with all the negative emotions that might come with it. Please know that you don't have to suffer all these alone. You don't have to live like that. You exist for a reason and are meant to thrive in life. If you can, please talk to someone as soon as you possibly can. The thoughts might not go away immediately after talking but over time, talking about it might make the suicidal thoughts less real and making living more bearable. God loves you v much and you are v precious in His eyes. Hang in there and press on. Praying for you!