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Suicidal... again

eholl122
eholl122

I work this insanely stressful job and I don't know what to do about it. If I quit, I'll feel like a total failure (I feel like that already and I'm just thinking about it) but I can't keep working these 60 hour weeks. I work in a residential treatment facility for adolescent sex offenders and I just can't take the abuse day in and day out. On top of all of this, I just got a promotion and will be starting the new position in a week. I will be doing a lot of the same things that I currently do and the hours won't be any less. But how can I quit now? I don't know what to do and I'm supposed to work in the morning but I don't even know how to get through the night without hurting myself.

babybear2592
babybear2592
Hi, I'm Katie. I'm sorry that your going through this, your job sounds very stressful but you must be a strong person to work in that field and take the abuse you do. It's sounds to me like your stronger than you think. You may doubt yourself and be afraid of failing. The only way you can fail is by hurting yourself. Don't let your career take away your life and happiness. You are so much more than a job. My suggestion is to crack a bottle of wine, or perhaps if you dabble in a little Mary Jane(my stress reliever
whit22
whit22
Hey there,

I agree with Katie that you're life is worth way more than any job. And your happiness is of high importance.

I quit my office job that was sucking the life out of me a couple months ago. I left and decided to do nursing school instead.

That very rational voice telling you to quit makes sense. I say start searching what other jobs could make you happy each day. That could be something to look forward to for tomorrow.

Life is too valuable to spend it miserable and stressed out. Plan when you can quit and then count down the days to that freedom :)

In the meantime, I wouldn't recommend any alcohol or drugs. Those may worsen your suicidal thoughts and mood. That's a fact.

Try healthy, positive things: eat tasty food, make things, get in touch with your spiritual/religious side if you have one, listen to music, read, dance, plan something fun to do, something new. Anything that can bring your mind back to the now, and the positive.
bridgie101
bridgie101
How about you quit the soul-crushing 60 hr a week job. And then if you can't live with your 'failure' (even though the rest of us would have called that success) you can kill yourself then.

Don't you think?

You never know your luck. Maybe, just maybe, you'll leave that job and be so glad you did it you don't feel like a failure at all, but rather feel like someone who just learned the lesson Kafka was always trying to teach, of not wasting time flogging dead horses, and getting the hell out while you still are alive to do it despite not having cracked some magical code.

Sometimes realising you can't win and getting the hell out, IS winning.