HELLO, I AM SORRY THAT YOU ARE FEELING SO UNHAPPY.
CAN I ASK YOUR AGE ?
DEPRESSION IS SO COMMON NOW,
I THOUGHT WHEN I GOT UP TODAY, THAT IF YOU PUT ON THE T.V., THE NEWS IS ENUGH TO GIVE ANYONE DEPRESSION.
SO DON'T LET YOUR DAY START WITH NEWS, PERHAPS YOU NEED TO STOP IN ON COMPUTOR ETC. WHEN I OPEN MY CURTAINS, I GIVE THANKS FOR THE DAY AND GIVE GRATITUDE FOR WHAT I SEE FROM MY WINDOW.
TRY AND DRESS NICE & THAT HELPS. I AM A VERY BRIGHT COLOUR PERSON & 4 YRS. AGO IT WAS A FIGHT TO GET UP AND DO ANY THINK
I STARTED GOING TO AN ART CLASS FOR THOSE WHO WERE SUFFERING.
AMAZINGLY I STARTED BY PAINTING USING BRIGHT COLOURS & THIS HAS HELPED ME.
LIFE IS STILL TAKING 1 DAY AT A TIME, BUT NOW I CAN ENJOY IT.
HAVE YOU GOT ANY INTEREST ?

Please seek professional help. I have had many suicidal urges in my life and now I am in my 60s and am SO glad to be alive. Medication, talk therapy, and other tools can help you get passed the way you are feeling now. You'll find a lot of support at this message board. May God bless you.

I can understand. I guess no matter how you try, you can't break free from the barrier that blocks you. The glass box, it seems to me to be an isolation; whereas; you can see the mirror images of other people's happiness but unable to participate due to issues holding back your own happiness. I hold back a bit of myself and it pains me so because I know my barriers keep me from a fuller life. The one thing that helped me was a journal where I logged in my experiences, remembered memories, and the Real Honest feelings I experienced during that time. 1 thing you need to know even in your glass box, you are Not alone. In this group you will find kindred spirits you can challenge your thoughts and concernstoward and hopefully find a peace!

Medication and counseling by a mental-health professional is good; couple with exercise that releases chemicals that can lift your mood, increase your energy, and improve your sleep. Record your thoughts and feelings in a journal. Also please don’t overlook your spiritual needs: Pour out your heart to God in prayer…it can help calm you. Philippians 4:6,7

I struggle with depression too. It feels like its somthing that I am doing wrong and need to fix.... but, I know that there its more to it then that. I am starting a new path of healing, through my doctors office, and this website. I Would like to encourage you to look at all of your options before you feel that your out of them... Thats how i got away from my suicidal thoughts. And I do believe that people like you and I will eventually figure it out.

I'm so sorry to hear of your pain and struggle. I too am in the same boat as you. I'm at my wits end. I an undergoing TMS treatments which are not helping at all so far. May be moving over to ECT. I am not on depression meds. My depression is very med resistant. I occasionally take Kolonopin for anxiety by I take the smallest amount as needed. I also take meds for Insomnia. They barely work. I see my psych dr and go to regular therapy ebery week. I don't know what keeps me alive everyday. I hope u begin to feel better.

I have struggled with depression and anxiety since I was a child. I would recommend that you see a psychiatrist who can evaluate and diagnose. They can refer you to a therapist. I am sorry you are feeling this way.

I am diagnosed, and on meds for all who asked. I've dealt with depression at a severe level for about 6 years

Life can be a dark place. Like being trapped in a cold, deep hole. And most people don't understand. I hope you find some support on here.