I have been having compulsive thoughts about suicide. Everyday I get a little bit closer to just going through with it. Now before you all tell me that "I just need to keep fighting" I know that. I fighting every f-ing day of my life. Sometimes its easy and sometimes it is the biggest struggle. I just want these thoughts to get out of my head and suicide seems to be the only answer. I wish I could just stop thinking or distract myself but nothing works. My brain is too good at multitasking. Distractions just mean I'm doing something pointless and thinking about suicide at the same time. The meds don't make the thoughts go away either. They just make it so I can function and think about suicide at the same time. I have thought about suicide almost everyday for six years. Is it ever going to go away?
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