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Ive been stuck in transition for a while, grieving my body as my pain and condition has worsened so the one way I managed my depression my entire life (working, overworking) is gone, Ive undergone every treatment and medication for depression including every medication, ECT, TMS, only to be labeled "Treatment" and "Medication" resistant
I live every day out of responsibility-I want to end my life but dont wish anyone else to after to deal with the pain and work of aftermath so I suffer thru each day. My relationship was already strained amidst some lying and deciet and yesterday things went terribly wrong as my partner thought that if he threw me out of bed or manhandled me I would "fight" back, and snap out of my depression that has paralyzed me. Now Im even more depressed and hopeless because how can I stay with someone who physically attacked me, when I already suffer so much? Yet he is the one happiness I have felt and experienced in life in years....He has become my life, but he is the best and worst thing to happen to me. Im afraid of life with him, but I think Im more afraid of life without him....I dont have any friends anymore and our lives are entangled, im so scared and confused and alone
thanks for any suggestions...
I live every day out of responsibility-I want to end my life but dont wish anyone else to after to deal with the pain and work of aftermath so I suffer thru each day. My relationship was already strained amidst some lying and deciet and yesterday things went terribly wrong as my partner thought that if he threw me out of bed or manhandled me I would "fight" back, and snap out of my depression that has paralyzed me. Now Im even more depressed and hopeless because how can I stay with someone who physically attacked me, when I already suffer so much? Yet he is the one happiness I have felt and experienced in life in years....He has become my life, but he is the best and worst thing to happen to me. Im afraid of life with him, but I think Im more afraid of life without him....I dont have any friends anymore and our lives are entangled, im so scared and confused and alone
thanks for any suggestions...
I am going to post the number for the National Domestic Abuse Hotline and you can call them and talk to them. Your call is totally confidential and you don't even have to give your name. They will help you with resources in your area for you to get help. Please reach out for help and please be safe. (((HUGS)))
The National Domestic Violence Hotline 1-800-799-7233
They are there 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and 365 days a year.
You are not alone. You matter and nobody has the right to abuse you. Please take care.
I also so hope you follow DaisyGirl's advice and call the National Domestic Violence Hotline 1-800-799-7233. Men who abuse women often like to socially isolate them so that they feel they have no one else to turn to and they lose confidence in themselves. There are shelters, and counselors who will be real friends. They can help you get back on your feet and to believe in yourself again. Not to in any way belittle all your symptoms, but I wouldn't be surprised if some of them lessened if you got away from this abusive man.Perhaps he is the reason you do not respond better to treatment.
I will pray for you.
Sometimes we need to force ourselves to get up and get active. For your partner to physically force you up is very sad.
Gentle hugs