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I've only recently (a few months) started going to therapy because I generally felt awful about myself and about where my life was going (or rather, wasn't going).
I've been doing terrible at college for a long while now, and I'm years behind where I should be. I've never been extremely sociable, but up until this year I had at least managed to keep some friends (or acquaintances) around. Recently, though, I pretty much just stopped interacting with anybody. Generally I just feel like I've wasted the larger part of my youth doing absolutely nothing. I can't focus or study, and I have an increasingly hard time talking to anybody for longer than five minutes without feeling miserable. My chances of graduating begin to seem pretty slim and I basically fail to see any future where I won't be stuck in the same place I am now, with no job, no friends, no passion or drive for anything.
Anyway, so I've been going to therapy for some months and a couple of weeks ago I started taking Wellbutrin, but I'm still not sure if I've been making any progress. After every session I go home feeling like I've gained a bit more insight about what's wrong with me, but it never translates into anything. I'm still stuck in the same place and eventually go back to feeling the same way.
I was invited to a birthday party tonight and my therapist encouraged me to go, but I'm feeling anxious. I don't know most of the people who will be there, and the rest I haven't spoken to in ages. I can't shake off the feeling that at this point people only approach me by mistake or out of pity.
I've been doing terrible at college for a long while now, and I'm years behind where I should be. I've never been extremely sociable, but up until this year I had at least managed to keep some friends (or acquaintances) around. Recently, though, I pretty much just stopped interacting with anybody. Generally I just feel like I've wasted the larger part of my youth doing absolutely nothing. I can't focus or study, and I have an increasingly hard time talking to anybody for longer than five minutes without feeling miserable. My chances of graduating begin to seem pretty slim and I basically fail to see any future where I won't be stuck in the same place I am now, with no job, no friends, no passion or drive for anything.
Anyway, so I've been going to therapy for some months and a couple of weeks ago I started taking Wellbutrin, but I'm still not sure if I've been making any progress. After every session I go home feeling like I've gained a bit more insight about what's wrong with me, but it never translates into anything. I'm still stuck in the same place and eventually go back to feeling the same way.
I was invited to a birthday party tonight and my therapist encouraged me to go, but I'm feeling anxious. I don't know most of the people who will be there, and the rest I haven't spoken to in ages. I can't shake off the feeling that at this point people only approach me by mistake or out of pity.
Would a change in major help?
Would takiing a year off to run away help?
I did change majors before and it was pretty disastrous. I dropped out of film school after about a year and a half, decided I would take a year to "figure it out", but I think that was the loneliest year I ever spent. I literally wouldn't even leave my room, I'd just lay in bed or doze off in front of the computer, occasionally taking time to prepare my admission exam. In any way, this time it's not really the career choice that's the problem, so changing majors wouldn't really fix anything.
I don't have the financial means to take a year off, and even if I did I could only see myself going further down the drain having nothing to do all day.
I know you prolly don't want to hear this but very few young men know exactly where they are going at age 25.
Be patient with yourself. It is NOT too late!