Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Hi. I am new to this support group. I am so hoping to find others who can relate to me and my disabilities. You see I have severe Major Depression and very active General Anxiety Disorder with Psycotic features. I have had these disorders for years. I have had a councelor for years and years... and also a Psychiatrist. I am on quite few meds. The clinic I go to also has nurses that can give injections, if needed, and keep track of vital signs. I go in cycles over and over. I will feel like I can bear these feelings and symptoms and then I can't at all. It tends to come on fast and furious...the downward spiral, but the climbing up out of the quicksand is getting more and more difficult. Some days I might be considered high functioning and others I am a crappy mess with emotions all over the place and am useless to anyone. My many different councelors over the years I know seem to want to help, but I am not sure if they are skilled enough for my level of disease.
Today I am feeling so upset and anxious and as my screenname says HOLLOW. I have so much on my plate right now and SHOULD be able to tackle it but I simply can't. I can barely type this note. When I said quicksand earlier...that's how it feels. I am slowly but inevitably sinking and trying to get out of the quicksand is impossible. At least it seems so right now!! I have had alot of changes in my life very close together. I worry constantly about everything and anything. The Psycotic feature is paranoia. I am constantly looking around my environment to check for any sort of danger. The combo of it all is overwelming me. In the past I have attempted suicide many times. Its been a quite a while since the last attempt. I dont feel suicidal right this moment but I feel like it could creep back in at any moment. I hope this makes sense to someone, anyone here?? I am hoping to connect with others who are struggling right now as well. Thank you. HollowNow
Welcome in! And I'm so sorry that you are feeling hollow. You mention that many counselors want to help yet you are uncertain that these folks are skilled enough to understand your level of needs. So I ask, through all of your experiences, are you willing to share any news of why you think this way? And are you or have you finished the course of therapy with any one of them?
Sending welcoming hugs to you. I hope for you all that you can imagine which is good in your life today.
It is my sincere belief that some people in the field of professional counseling are not yet through with learning. And as you personally feel that a counselor is not getting you then it is best to quit them. However, I will tell you that part of good therapy is the plan to cause clients not to feel comfortable at given times, and the majority of their time is spent in the stimulus of frustrating one to the point of expressing unflattering thoughts and behavior. I recall myself wanting to personally throw my therapist through a glass pane window. Gosh, he was so annoying. I usually waited until he left the room and peeked at his assessment notes. (yes, this is private but about me, thank you) He had the gall to describe a dress I wore to my appointment on that day as flamboyant in style. What has my dress got to do with anything!?.
Yeah, I can understand your concept of some of your therapy sessions. Yet I have come to believe that there are still good therapists out there. I hope for you to find the treatment you seek.
"Psychotic, schizophrenic, neurotic, and other specific terms should be used only in proper context and should be checked carefully for medical and legal accuracy." - https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK64884/
The last few days have been bearable but just barely. I am feeling very alone. My husband is still here but he doesn't seem to be emotionally available anymore. We are more friends/ roomates than married. I get a hug when I ask. I'm so tired emotionally that sometimes I don't bother asking anymore.ifeel like a burden.