Depression Support Group
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I feel like I've hit a bit of a depressed patch again. Was terribly bad a while back, but the last little bit has been great. Recently though, I was foreced to take time off my program due to my pain getting in the way of studys. Now I'm trying to go back and being told I will probably have to change my program. I guess I will just have to pick something? I usually just lay in bed and use my computer, but decided to sit at my desk today and within 20 minutes back pain got much worse (because I'm sitting). This worries me, how will I get through 3 hour classes 4 times a week? Then I'm on pain meds which I was not when I last took classes and am not sure how this will affect already not so great memory when it comes to memorizing textbooks. And the icing on the cake, if I don't maintain the grades they want this time around I am basically screwed with this university. I'm am going to see if they have alternative classes as well.... guess I'll just have to put up with the feels a couple more days until I get it all sorted out.
Yes nowhere nearly as bad as some of the other posts up here, but I've been there to unfotrunately. Glad its not as bad right now. Still this has been running through my mind and is quite bothersome!
I totally get you there hope, I've reduced my pain meds by almost 50% and it is still like a double edged sword with them.
Gladd I did go to their "disability councillor", I even told the counsellor of what types of "aids" they offered that I felt would help me. I was met with excuses as to why I should not take those aids and left no better than when I went in.
I'm going to try to see if I can get some sort of online classes for now, as I'm pretty conflicted about returning to classes and sitting there for hours (as theres no trying it, it's all or nothing at this point.) Even the first time around, I would make it through half the class and have to leave nearly in tears, only to be met by an hour drive home in traffic...and they wonder why I did not succeed.
And then I feel like others think I'm using this as an "excuse" to not have to study. I can't blame them, as after so long I've even questioned myself from time to time. But when pain really kicks in, I know I'm not. AND when in the odd time pain is extremely minimal, I feel like someone else, so open minded, thinking clearly and focused.