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Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Drn12491
Drn12491

Hey I'm new but thot I'd tell u a lil about myself.. I'm 24. I have two kids by the same dead beat sperm donor and I have a laundry list of problems.. I have had depression for over 10 years.. I have been molested raped and manipulated into doing things I didn't want to do. My first molestation was when I was 3 years old. Unfortunately I remember most of what happened. Fast forward 5 yrs.. dirty truth or dare is the only way you hang out with us... i was 8 and wanted to fit in... fast forward 6 years... my mom's bf records my older sister and I in the shower... destroys evidence when I tell my therapist, who tells the cops... only gets 200 hrs community service.. a few more years.. I meet baby daddy @ work.. we're in love and all we want is a family.. on again off again... 4/1/11 you are pregnant. Shit and he's in another town with some chicken name Candice.. I'm scared alone and I still have to tell my aunt... by myself. On again off again some more my son is born and I'm semi prepared to raise this beautiful boy by myself... then the depression hit. Hard. On again off again.. meet the most wonderful therapist... baby daddy tries to shove me thru a second story window... restraining order.. I'm at home sleeping son upstairs and the guy I thot was cool.. rapes me on my couch and there's nothing I can do about it... i go completely nuts in and out of the hospital... i lose my son. I go even more insane... my son has epilepsy.. it's too much to bare.. in and out the hospital... i have legally lost guardianship...but still have parental rights... then I'm into him again cus that's what I do when I'm crazy depressed go back to the man who tried to hurt me... we get engaged.... i break my ankle... he complains about having to take care of me... I'm pregnant again with his child ... i break it off with him and move far away.. idk anyone and move back... I'm 5 months pregnant  try to make it work... nope... i move in with my aunt and have my beautiful daughter.. Now I'm living on my own with my daughter working full time for crap pay and about to start school... i can't afford food let alone diapers for my child's butt.. just found 4 mos after my daughter was born that he had another child..to add to his previous 4 children he doesn't do shit for. i work and don't get to see her much since she's not a day napper... she sleeps all night tho... i love my daughter but the bills and stress of my job and knowing school won't be easy... is really boggin me down... I'm alone stuffing my face every night in front of the TV and rarely get out... I feel so alone and isolated... I'm waiting for my therapist's next avail appt but it's still 3 weeks away.. Idk how I'm going to survive.. not to mention I just lost food stamps and my birth control migrated almost thru my uterine wall... when life sucks it sucks hard... 

billwfriend
billwfriend
Wow some poor choices and dumb luck. Thank your aunt for housing you!
harlie_14
harlie_14
hi im a teenager but i can relate on the opposite side because my mom had to go through what ur going through and i had to experience it too come talk to me if u want.
neostarman
neostarman
If it makes feel any better, I'm struggling for food too. I barely have anything in the house to eat and everything is such a mess that I just want to bash my brains out. But even though I'm going through my own hell I wanted to let you know you're not alone. I'm not a survivor like you are. But you're here and asking for help and that's good. If you need to talk you can message me or text the crisis center at 741741 "GO". I use it everyday
Gladdmatt
Gladdmatt
You said it best yourself: when life sucks it sucks hard. You have so many issues both past and present; if I were in your shoes I'd be handling things much worse than you are. There are hotlines you can call for depression, etc. to help you over the next three weeks, and there is also of course this website, an people are available 24/7. Perhpas you could use this time before your next appointment to make some sort of list or plan for how you might be able to deal with your present situation, and then go over it with your therapist? I'm on 3 kinds of meds plus talk therapy, so believe you me I have my moments, days, weeks of depression, despait, PTSD, etc. But one thing that does help me anyway, is to take a few deep breaths and itemize and prioritize how I want to work things out, rather than feeling like "everything" is permanently messed up. If you have an HP, that in my experience helps, too, and brings some sense of calm and reason to my latest chaos. I have PTSD from my childhood abuse, which including sexual abuse. What my meds help me do is to not equate current situations as reruns of my past. It doesn't work 100% but it helps. I'll pray for you.
Minidogs2
Minidogs2
Sorry for all the abuse from your past and your current suffering. Great idea to remain with therapy and go forward with your schooling. Hang tough to not allow any abusive relationships. Try to keep venting your emotions by journaling on this site for feedback or just for yourself until your therapy appointment comes up.
Heidiclark
Heidiclark
Focus on what you are doing right. You are in school and are getting therapy. Can you reapply for food stamps? Many of us here have been through severe abuse so reach out and talk to people. See if your menal health center has a group for survivors of rape. And post here any time. We are here for you.
Drn12491
Drn12491
@ billwfriend- Thank you for pointing out what I already knew... I know I made wrong choices but when someone is feeling low and posts something so personal... I might be wrong but fixating on their mistakes is not what they want to hear about.
@everyone else- thank you for your responses. I am trying to manage my depression and stess levels as best as possible. I am avoiding the deep darkness but I can feel my personality changing and I feel like I am slipping.. Why now? I wish I knew. I wish I could turn it off again.. I turned it off for a yr and a half. Maybe I am just fooling myself to think I will ever be, I don't want to say "normal," but at least a little sane. Maybe I am meant to be alone and without anyone to love me.
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