Hi all, I've come here hundreds of times since my first post, but I haven't been able to bring myself to add an update. It amazes me that, although we are all different, we are similar in so many ways. Much of what I read could have been written by me. It makes me sad, and makes me cry for all of us. 

I am continuing to struggle with work(boss) troubles.... I Just can't seem to do anything right. I have tried. I have been looking for a new job, but that is tough and stressful too. This area has really low unemployment, and most of the positions available are going to be a huge pay cut. Not to mention that My self esteem and self confidence have crashed as well.

I spent Christmas Day with my parents and my brother and his family. That's always a bit stressful for me as well. They're always so happy and life is perfect. My mother brags about how she does this and that with/for them. And I'm so jealous, why can't I have that? 

I'm sorry. I should be happy, I have a home, I have a job that pays the bills, and I have food to eat.... And I am thankful for that, but I am so alone and unhappy.