hi mal. it's hard to live in this world sometimes. i think about suicide too, how to make it look like it wasn't suicide. hope it passes for you.

i know what would make me feel better. do you know what would make you feel better? you don't have to answer, unless you want. peace

"do you know what would make you feel better?"

Just for something, anything that I want to go in my favour..

I hear that. I ponder it more than I actually think about it. I mean, really think about it. I have made no attempts, but I don't gloss over the fact that it's there in my brain, always lurking. My biological father, who I never met, committed suicide when I was 16 - I know all too well the lasting effects that act leaves on people, even those you may not think it will impact at all. I survive one day at a time.

((((((((hugs))))))))

this sounds like a horrible state of limbo to be in. Can you MAKE something go in your favour?

Something has already gone in your favor...you aren't dead, those pills didn't work. That's something. Life is a stage and as real as it feels to you right now, when you've done it - it will be but another dramatic moment - a plot point that could have gone in a million other directions. That is what keeps me from doing it. What of the plucky new kid who steals the show and receives many accolades from admirers as the curtain falls. That could be me if I hadn't been killed off in the first act.

i really hope something goes in your favor mal. we could use some good luck sometimes.

your avi's are amazing mal...I would miss that if you were gone for good.
i try to remember: In the whole world we maybe just one person, but to one person we maybe the whole world. hugz, and hang in there mal.

I've done that. I get help from doctors or meds, took a while to get the right meds and therapy and the meds I am on now were useless 5 years ago

I am right there with you, I know exactly how you feel. I'm sorry you are going through this... hugs, hugs, hugs

I too have thought of suicide and made many attempts. Why they never worked is a mystery to me. Now I am just trying to get through day by day, waiting until the side effects from the asthma meds I'm on go away and I feel better. I wish I could think clearly right now. But that's the steroids interfering.

Annie

My mind is where yours is......so, as you can see, you are not alone in this thinking, others totally relate as well.

In the past, you supported me, even though you never knew me, you made a difference in my mind....please allow me to do the same....

I know what would help me tremendously....I have one now but dearly wish I could have more.

Can anyone here help something go right for you??