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Spiritual Separation

Help_me_Jesus
Help_me_Jesus

Hi there. I'm still here. I have no clue why...I'm still trying to figure out what the hell is going on. For two years I have felt like my soul was gone, thought I was the Devil, and now I just feel completely disconnected from everyone and everything, including myself. I wake up not knowing what to "do". I'm scared to do anything so I just stay inside my apartment and try to avoid everyone. I realize though that I can't hide from God. I want so badly to have a relationship with Him again but no matter what I do, I can't restore what's been lost. The hardest part about feeling separated from God is trying to figure out why. Yes, I have been diagnosed with a mental illness, and yes I smoked marijuana when I probably shouldn't have, but to end up this separated and this miserable is beyond my capacity to understand. I'm so broken. I don't know why this is happening to me, why I feel so disconnected...I know myself pretty well and this just feels beyond depression...Any thoughts?

leena515
leena515
Yes! As hard as it sounds, life is good. Ir may seem that you're getting hit one after another and there is no connection with God, but there is. Everything that happens to us, I believe, happens for a reason...whether to make us understand something, close a door we shouldnt open, etc. Theres a reason. The one thing I have learned on this journey, is it is up to us. No one is responsible for our happiness but ourselves. Its the hardest thing to do, but just try to get up tomorrow and take a walk down the street. I always remind myself when things are bad, its not life threatening and somewhere in this world right now, there is a parent sitting on thw end of a hospital bed, losing their child today...if they can stand that, you can get up and walk. Try to have faith that everything happens for a reason and right now you might not know what that reason is, but when you look back 2-3 yrs from now, you'll probably be thankful! Stay positive..pick yourself up..be self reliant and believe your life holds so many wonderful things ahead!! God Bless and good luck!!
TrappedinMaya
TrappedinMaya
I can relate to your situation. I've sometimes thought and felt that I've lost my soul or am a devil or something like that. It's hard, because we feel helpless and cut off from God. It is because of the things that happened or we've done in our life. And we're always living on fear, eh? It's tough. I think what you should do is reach out to God, no matter if it feels fake or hopeless. What I did very recently is that I went into a silent retreat. Even if I didn't feel like it, even if I didn't really believe in what I was doing. I just thought that perhaps I should make some effort, at least do something before I lose my soul completely, which I was not even sure it hasn't happened yet. And you know what? I just returned three days ago from that 10 day retreat and I feel so so different... It helped me a lot, cleared my mind somehow. If you can't do a personal retreat or be alone, you can reach out and look for a retreat master or a guide who can hep you. If you're not in touch directly now to your church or anybody there, you can search online to find a retreat center near your place, they will help you. The important thing is that you reach out to God, call on the name of Jesus, even when it's hard... Good luck and may it go well for you too. You may message me if you need to talk about this some more. Take care.