Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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blackhawkdown 06/25/2016

I am of the understanding that I am somewhat of a disappointment to one or more of you here.
Im sorry I haven't or didn't live up to your expectations.. I must be a real shit friend and Im sorry for that too. Im sorry Im broken ...Im sorry I didn't warn you that Im useless and not worthy of friendship or love. Im sorry this is taking up your time to read...its just worthless meaningless dribble I know. Im sorry I screwed up the first time but it wont happen twice I know what I did wrong and now its a sure thing. Im sorry Im wasting oxygen that a real person needs. Im sorry its taking so long for me to work up the courage...but one day soon I will be strong enough..
Maybe you will understand why in the days that follow my final sorry...
Im sorry I didn't say goodbye..

bridgie101 06/25/2016

don't be sorry.

You can't say sorry for something in advance. it's an indication you're not sorry.

If you're having a tough time, sit it out. Wait it out! During a depressive episode is the worst possible time you can make any decision, especially one you can't come back from.

Wait till life is the BEST it can get, having tried as hard as you possibly can, before calling it quits. See how you feel on a good day, not a bad one.

As to you what do you feel you have done wrong? What is wrong?

bridgie101 06/25/2016

And who cares if you're a disappointment to someone! We're all disappointments to someone!

Don't make people around you powerful. They're no more real than you. No more alive than you. No more knowing or understanding or aware or intelligent than you. Their opinions are just opinions. it's all subjective. :)

blackhawkdown 06/25/2016

What I did wrong? Ask about what I did right its a much shorter list. Any of life's pleasures my body wont let me enjoy. I cant eat anymore...I eat I vomit. The medical profession is stumped. The only thing I seem to manage is soda pop and that kills the taste of the meds. thank god for small miracles. I spent almost 2 hours with a team of doctors last week and Im staring at 12 different bottles of pills. Im sorry Im at my out reach. What am I to wait for? I don't know what a good day is anymore. Anyone Ive ever trusted has gone out of their way to hurt me mentally or physically or both except my parents.

bridgie101 06/27/2016

Well there you go. Your parents love you. Find the book 'unlucky wally' if you can get it. it's a picture book and it's adorable. As a mother myself, I'd rather put my arm through a waste disposal unit than have a child die. So be aware of that whenever you're feeling low. If you love them, you actually can't do this to them. Their devastation would be complete.

I had a girlfriend who couldn't eat for six months. She couldn't swallow. I think it was a psychological thing, women apparently get in their forties. is what you have anything like that? Or do you think it's medical?

What sorts of medications are you taking, do you think any of them might be incompatible?

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