Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
The last year & a half has been THE worst of my life. My childhood was a nightmare, my first marriage was a nightmare & my 2nd marriage (which Im still in) has turned out to be a big disappointment. My sons have hurt me more than anyone ever has. When my youngest called me, drunk, on April 3rd & threatened suicide, I could literally feel my heart break. I haven't been the same since that phone call. I think I have been hurt & traumatized one too many times. I feel like my heart has died & I am losing some of my faith. I scares the hell out of me. Has anyone else pin-pointed that one time when you could feel your heart break/die? I wake up every morning thinking "I have no other choice than to kill myself". I wont do it, because of what it would do to my son, & am afraid of God's wrath. Sorry I have a little bit of "feeling sorry for myself" syndrome today.
My youngest told me I was dead to him a short time ago. I texted him the other day to say hi and he said "whos this?" I said - your Mom...he said gotta go.
My oldest used me for tons of money and hasn't talked to me since Easter.
My first husband beat the crap out of me...2nd boyfriend ignored me...and my current boyfriend has substance abuse issues (which coupled with mine - makes a very toxic relationship).
I've also been called a "drunk" by my youngest. My heart is broken too..I cry all the time. Now my counselor is denying me because I have "missed" appointments.
We have to take care of ourselves so we can build a new life with people that will love us...either by going to the gym...library....I have the feel bad for myself syndrome EVERYDAY so your NOT ALONE....TRULY....I will think of you as a friend and you can think of me as the same...we are like TWINS in MISERY....when I get weak I will think of you going thru the same....and you do the same....
When we lay down to sleep with tears in our eyes....think of each other...we will get thru this. ACTUALLY in order to endure what we have endured we are STRONGER than we think.....lets focus on that...we are strong
I haven't been out I'm so depressed....