Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
i need my life to have meaning. something that means something to me. a reason to live. something real. sometimes when i feel i don't have that and feel so bad like i do now and usually i think of death and that is something real. something that i want and not what society wants. something that i can control and something that validates how awful i actually feel and how hard my life is because now it's just pretending everything is ok or in other words, trudging along miserably trying to fit into a society that i clearly Clearly don't fit into. some things in my life now are so sad and awful that they can't be overcome. i'm tired of pretending otherwise. oh, i wish i could stop this pain and this awareness of reality and how harsh and stark it is. words don't mean anything afterall. only experience and action qualify as life. i don't want to live this way anymore. I don't want to lose more. I don't want things to get even worse. sometimes typing feels like playing the piano. i always sucked at piano.
I don't want to assume things, but surely there is something that brings you pleasure. A good cup of coffee, a rainy day nap, the first wildflower of the spring, a beautiful sunrise or sunset. Focusing on the small pleasures in life makes living life a bit easier.
Do you have a gratitude journal?