i wish i had someone nice to talk to tonight.  i just need a friend.  i get so lonely and things are so hard.  every day is such an incredible struggle.  i was bullied at work today.  very annoying on top of everything else.  i mean, the bullying is the least of my troubles but i want the opposite.  i want a kindred spirit to talk to, to feel like i'm understood and supported.

sleep feels like my friend kind of. so does food. both calm me down and make me feel better for awhile.  that's about it though.  

i just want to be around someone nice and sane and helpful for a change.  i wonder what that would be like?

god i wish i could quit my job and just sleep.