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searchingforbalance
searchingforbalance

A young woman my age died yesterday. I didn’t even know this person, but I just feel terrible for her family. I had a dream about it last night, and it’s all I could think about today. All I can think about is how her family doesn’t deserve this pain and how their whole situation is so unfair. The other thing I’ve been thinking, the AWFUL thing, is that there’s a part of my mind that is almost jealous of her. I feel terrible for saying that. And it’s really not fair to her. She didn’t take her own life, it was totally unexpected, she had weekend plans, she had big plans for her future, and here I am wishing I was dead. And I really don’t know how to feel about that. I hate that there was a perfectly motivated person, ready to live her life to the fullest, but she was taken away. I hate that I’ve turned her death around and made it all about myself. I hate that she was taken and probably could have done much better things for this world than I can. I hate that her family is grieving because they knew her and loved her, but here I am grieving because I’m feeling jealousy. I feel like such a sick person and I’m sorry to put this on you all.

billwfriend
billwfriend
Its understandable believe me
OLDBIKER
OLDBIKER
In my opinion, I believe it's placed in all of us to want to live. That's why they say self preservation is the strongest will of man however, when depression invades our lives, it changes our perspective of things and we think that death is the release that we desire. Depression is a mean monster and it causes so much pain and havoc in our lives. Life is precious. I lost a son at 37 yrs. old in a car wreck. The void he left, will never be filled. Regardless of how depression makes us feel. and how we see things, we are loved by someone, we touch other people's lives and they have memories of us, good or bad. Don't give up the fight. I've dealt with depression since 1995 but, I am still fighting and trying to help other wherever I can.
RJW
RJW
Thank you for sharing. My condolences on the loss. Grief is one of the strongest triggers of Depression. Depression is an Illness, that is lived with everyday, with those of us with Chronic Depression. You have nothing to be ashamed of. In fact, it took great courage and strength to Post your feelings. Grief does overwhelm, but death puts greater meaning into life. Life is fragile, and should be lived. By you being in this life, you make the living better off for it. Depression fills us with lies. Grief triggers more, which makes those lies louder. Our lives can touch and benefit more than we will ever know. I hope this made sense. Thank you and God Bless.
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