i have been doing really good since my last post. I'm still not sure what happened last night but I was in crisis mode again!! I tried to ignore it and just hold on till bed time. Well it worked and for what ever reason I woke up in a great mood this morning. I was happy and smileing. Thought it was gonna be a good day. But as it has startrd to get later, I'm all depressed again. Just wanting to lay down and not move or do anything. I'm so frustrated and tired of being like this!!!
I have been broke for so long that I can't afford to get help like I need too. I have no support system at home so i am struggleing throught his alone. and I live in such a rural area that there is no "free clinics" anywhere. and even if I was to go to the hospital or something, they would still want money from me and they don't help me like I need too. ( trust me i have tried) Just watch me for a few hours give me some seditives and then send me home?!?! I need help!!! Like some hard core counseling!! I'm tired of suffering alone!!!