Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Soffocating

BUTTERLY759
BUTTERLY759
I feel like I am soffocating.. I am at work right now, sorrounder by so many people.. Yet I feel so lonely.. I feel such a heavy heart.. I feel as if I can't breath and I want to just run and hide.. I feel such heaviness inside, trying so hard to hold back the teers that so badly want to some down.. And I can't cry.. I can't cry.. My eyes turn bloody red whenever I cry, and my entire face turns red when I cry.. I don't want no one to know how much I am hurting inside... But wow, I am hurting inside so bad...
stevebhopes
stevebhopes
It is so very hard to have to pretend to be ok when you are crumbling on the inside. I am truly amazed you are able to work at all given all you deal with. You are a Superhero for that! I find if I pray when I feel all alone and desperate that I usually get some relief, however small. Please know we care about you and you can be real here. Keep holding on to the tiniest spark of hope that things can get better.
gramybear
gramybear
Is there not one person there at your job that you could confide in and let them know what you are going through? Is there anyone at home? First and foremost, take deep breaths. That is what I just had to do but had to have a dear friend remind me of this important thing that our bodies need to do...Breathe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do you have a break coming up? Can you get away for even 5 minutes and go for a walk and get some fresh air, and get your endorphins working? Reading your last sentence really saddens me because I know how terrible that loneliness and awful feeling is. Post again if nothing else works. The support here always helps me. Hang in there!!
gramybear
gramybear
Is there not one person there at your job that you could confide in and let them know what you are going through? Is there anyone at home? First and foremost, take deep breaths. That is what I just had to do but had to have a dear friend remind me of this important thing that our bodies need to do...Breathe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do you have a break coming up? Can you get away for even 5 minutes and go for a walk and get some fresh air, and get your endorphins working? Reading your last sentence really saddens me because I know how terrible that loneliness and awful feeling is. Post again if nothing else works. The support here always helps me. Hang in there!!
nolaguy
nolaguy
Hi Butterfly, I am sad to read how you are feeling. I don't know you but I know what you are feeling. I would like to follow your journal entries. Do you think you could journal WHY you feel depressed? Its kind of hard to do sometimes, I was hard for me anyway.
Much love from a fellow DS'er :)