Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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so tired of this feeling

sjmd
sjmd
So here I am posting again. Every time I think I'm doing good something sets me off & I fall back down. I'm so tired of falling apart, tired of hiding but with kids I have no choice but to hide it. I'm their only parent I have to be strong. It just sucks. Things that shouldn't set off my depression do & down I go. I just want it to end. The curling up in a ball, crying myself to sleep, the worthlessness, feeling like I'm not good enough for anyone,the loneliness... I just want it to end. No I won't end my own life I can't do that to my kids
deleted_user
deleted_user
I to am a mum and I know how hard it can be pretending to be fine all day then falling apart when they are fast asleep. It's torture and it makes everything dark and gloomy. It makes the days feel like weeks and some days bedtime can't come quick enough.

I try to focus on the little things my kids do. Like my little one claps his hands then rubs them together and it is so cute and he just looks so happy. For that moment with him I forget it all. Even if it is only for a couple of minutes. My eldest boy says he loves me or does a little dance and the same thing happens.

Try not to be so focused on the whole big picture but the little details that sometimes we all over look.

Just take a moment.
Breathe.
Smile.

If you need to talk to someone you can message me if you like. I am always here to lend and ear and have a chat :)

Tina x o x o
solitudeisnear
solitudeisnear
I am so sorry you are feeling so alone. I am glad you are strong enough to hide it from your kids. Mine knows I have depression and has been told some about it. I know what its like too, when your taking care of them yourself. Keep up the fight though and just keep sharing and letting it out. If you can maybe find a therapist too. Your courage to come here is a plus. I hope you found some relief today or after coming on here. I'm here too if you need an ear.