I wish I could say I feel so happy on this Christmas day, but I don't. I feel terrible. This morning was wonderful, then it hit me that I was coming back here. And the second I walked into work, a massive migraine hit, I felt a huge weight on my shoulders, and I feel like crying. The wanting to cry hasn't stopped all night. I just want to sleep. This weekend was amazing. But it ended so fast and I was thrown back into everything that tears me apart. Everything about this place just ruins my mood and I instantly feel anxious and depressed (when I'm back where I live in general). Work makes it worse, but being away from my family and friends makes everything so horrible. I thought after my interview Friday that I might be able to get a call this week about a job offer and quit this job and move home and everything would get better. But they want a second interview first, which I get, and I'm happy that I got that, but I just need to get out of here. I need to be where people care and love me and I don't live every moment waiting for the next thing to crash down on me.