Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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amazinglyapril 01/05/2012

I'm so bottom of the barrel sad. I am literally sick to my stomach in the morning all the way up until about mid afternoon when I FINALLY start to feel hungry, if i can actually get the energy to make myself something to eat. My house is a mess and my life feels so empty and hopeless. I feel physical pain in my chest and my heart and my soul. I worry that I'm going to lose my job because I'm barely keeping myself together. My poor children have to be around me and I'm trying so hard to behave semi-normal around them. I can hardly care for my own self and brush my own teeth let alone stay on top of making sure they care for themselves. I hate myself for this right now.

I have an appt next Wednesday to see a Psych, but that feel so painfully far away from now. All I can think about is making it to next Wednesday. I just want someone to take care of me until then. Or, I want to just sleep until then. Anything to get me to not feel anything until then.

meandthebeast 01/05/2012

Sorry sweetie.. Depression is the pits.. totally.
I hope the Dr. appt helps.. Sending you positive thoughts and mojo

amazinglyapril 01/05/2012

Thanks - its just nice to be comforted right now.

deleted_user 01/05/2012

Amazingly, I could have written these same words...Don't hate yourself, I'm sure you're doing the absolute best you can do. I remember when my children were younger, I felt the same way - that it was all I could do to make sure they saw me semi-functional. Fortunately at the time, I had my in-laws who could help at times when I was at my worst. I'm new here, but wanted to let you know that you're not alone. You will make it to Wednesday. Until then, take gentle care of yourself. Don't worry about the house being clean, etc. You just do the essentials for keeping your children safe - and yourself safe. Let you're kids know you love them, even though mommy feels sad.

Sending you hugs and peace...

ocdPositive 01/05/2012

I don't have kids, but I have been really depressed before. I'm sorry that things are so tough right now. I do think that little victories like brushing your teeth and reminding the kids to do homework, etc will be good steps to keep on the right track. I hope things get better.

deleted_user 01/05/2012

It sounds like between now and your appointment (AND BEYOND) you need to start making 5 small attainable daily goals. The really important thing with this is to GIVE YOURSELF CREDIT FOR ACCOMPLISHING YOUR GOALS EACH DAY. These goals should be equal to the level you are at. Some days that may mean getting out of bed, taking a shower, changing your clothes and on other days that may mean, doing the dishes, doing a complete load of clothes, going for a walk....etc. etc. etc.

Give yourself a break, hell even try being kind to yourself a bit. You know the saying.... more flies with honey than vinegar.
Hugs.

amazinglyapril 01/05/2012

Thanks, Menelaus - good advice. Advice I've given but as crazy as it sounds I sometimes find myself needing to hear it all over again myself.

Thanks ocdPositive and BellaBell.

ZAZAS 01/05/2012

I am feeling about the same way right now. One reason, I am out of my medication. Sometimes I just want to pull the covers up over my head and stay there. Hang on, next week will be here and you can get some help. Explain to your kids that Mommie doesn't feel well but will be better after seeing the doctor.

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