So sorry you feel that way Joanne, I get dark thoughts as well, and often. You just have to push through the pain, take it one minute at a time, one hour at a time. Don't think about the future too much when these thoughts come. When you're going through hell, just keep going. Take care of yourself.

what helps me when I'm feeling at my lowest is to just focus on something that makes me happy. it's hard sometimes when there's so much bad going on but i can usually find happiness just in the simple things.. fixing myself a hot chocolate.. finding a funny cartoon to watch.. or playing a game where i can maybe vent some frustrations on the bad guys instead of taking it out on those around me. might seem stupid but it's really helped me from going crazy.

hope you feel better! <3

BIG WARM HUGS. The first step is reaching out, and knowing you are not alone in this. Im sorry the 'bad thoughts' are there. Ive also struggled with it and its never easy... we all have bad days, and its okay. I hope you can find some joy to keep you alive!
A way to help with feeling down, i recommend go out for a walk - it really can help bc it can ground you in the present. try looking for 1 or 2 things that you find beautiful in the world!
hope that helps!! remember your not alone.

Thank you for sharing. Definitely not being alone helps, as comfort in just the physical presence of others. A positive distraction can help, till the storm of Depression lessens. Never shame in seeking help from a professional, like a Doctor, Therapist, or Counselor. Good to find Hope, and hold onto that. Thank you. God Bless.

Thank you so much every one for replying to me I've contacted my doctor who got me a appointment with the mental health team tomorrow morning to see if they can help me so thank you all so much for your help advice and love I will keep you updated all tomorrow kind regards joanne x

Hey there joanne777. I thank you for sharing your deperession problem. Not everybody is comfortable to share their emotions on both the real world or online. However nevertheless it seems to me that you have the ability to express yourself to everybody online as to how are you feeling and letting us know that you are setting up an appointment with a doctor. I'm impressed keep it up joanne777. Hope you will be better soon and do feel free to express yourself here at anytime and we will not judge you but instead we shall awknowledge your post.

Kinglvan thank you I won't get much sleep till morning as I feel I need to be back under mental health like I ve been in the past like so many other people I suffer with depression and anxiety and stress and ocd and now we all have to deal with this viris going on

I'm so sorry that you feel that way. It gets better I promise you. Maybe not today, tomorrow or any time soon but eventually it does. Please be strong and I hope you have a strong support system to help you through .

Joanne777,

Just reaching out to check on you. This person cares. How are you feeling today? Sending you best wishes

I have had thoughts of just being ok if I died. I’m not suicidal but I think it would be so much easier if I wasn’t here. So much hate and resentment in my family and I can’t fix it