Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Lately, I've had this insistent feeling that I should reach out to my biological father. He's been out of my life for 10+ years. My counselor feels that it may help me to reach out to him. To try and rekindle something. Problem is, I don't want to rekindle anything with him. He was replaced long ago. Even without rekindling a relationship with him, it could help with my depression. I could tell him how my daily life is. I could tell him about all the things I blame him for. He could be in my life, just not as my father. I just...I don't want my heart broke again. The last time he hurt me, I was 9. The last time he hurt me, I had to grow up to take his place in my family. If he hurts me again, it's going to be a while before I can trust again. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to approach this. I want him to know the pain he's caused me. Maybe if he knew, I could move on. I could quit hating him. But the thought of being hurt again makes me hesitant. I don't know what to do anymore.
won't do anything except harm.
You don't have to forgive anyone for anything - I personally don't believe it's possible when someone continuously hurt you and seemed to enjoy it, but the need to pay back or punish them
only interferes with your life.
That insistent feeling - I had the same thing recently and contacted someone who has talked about me and criticized me my whole life, but I'm getting older, and they're much older, and I was afraid to ignore the feeling, in case something might happen to one of us, soon -- then it would be too late. I'm glad I called.