Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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fatalerror0x00 04/30/2013

I'm new here I was going through a rough day and realized I need more help but didn't wish to seek it through asking others for advice but to do it all on my own. This was the first site I found and went with it when I saw all that it provided and yet I haven't gotten to explore it all yet I hope to find the help I need here with you and the others here at DailyStrength. The past 2 days I've gone through almost losing the best girl I ever had who I can't seem to completely work things out but I believe it sacrificing some needs to get other needs. We leave a couple hundred miles apart so a lot of needs are never met and so lately I've been worried that when we do get to live together that those needs may not be met even then.

This has caused a lot of stress, suicidal thoughts, almost attempted suicide, lots of crying, frustration, and have left already broken emotional barriers shattered. My life is a mess right now even though we have worked things out a little more then they were. Yet even when things were pretty good that was when I started really thinking suicide and almost did it. But I just have a hard time bringing myself to something like that. I have actually attempted suicide one time and almost succeeded if it wasn't for my friend running into the road and throwing me out of the way of a car and into a house. Sometimes I wish he had just left me there to die. Other times I'm thankful for what he did. I just know my life may never be the same everytime I'm doing well something happens to make it go wrong again. Something bad doesn't really have to happen just put me in the situation I have to talk to someone and I don't wanna talk (even family and friends in the house) or turn on a light and instantly something is wrong either if it's social anxiety, or whatever it maybe it don't take much to set off something to make me upset.

itsjustme8 04/30/2013

I'm sorry you are burdened with what's on your plate right now. I didn't see any mention of you seeking. If you are having suicidal thoughts, PLEASE make sure you are seeking professional help. Do what you need to do.

muskrattiger 04/30/2013

i would like to welcome you to the group and i hope you find the suport you need there are some very good people who realy care ................i will tell you what i think i think it took a lot of courage for you to come in here and be honest with us and i realy think you do want help but i think you are going to have to be much stronger and go and get the real help you need sooner rather atan latter .............if i were you i would go and get a councelar or a phicatrist and what you need to do is talk and get every thing out of you ..............we werent ment to keep things in i learned this the hard way i was going dowen a similar road and i had tried to comite susiside and my son woke up from a napeand i relize he would of been the one to find me so i stoped and never tried again ...........i cried at home all the time when no one was there and when my husband came home i could put it together but it came to a point that i couldent put it together and i ended up in the hospital and had to have ect .............it saved me ...........that was 30 years ago i have had depreshion all my life and it is actin up again i see a phicatrist i dont realy need to talk but i do need to be on meds if i want to have a life so i chouise to have a life and be happy so i take my meds and go to my doctor and you know what if you brok your leag would you stay at home hobling around no you would go and get it fixed well same goes for the head ...............and not only that but depreshion can be pased dowen from parents and gradnparents and even further back .....................i do hope that you will go for help but what ever your choice i want you to know you are not alone i will be here for you and so will others ...........please take care of your self you are worth it ................i will keep you in my prayers ..........god bless

fatalerror0x00 04/30/2013

I do wish to add (because I thought you could see the details I typed when I joined this group or you just didn't read it and is fine) I do go to therapy 1-on-1 1 day a week I got to group therapy 1 day a week I have a case manager to help me with misclanious needs and I have an employment speciaist who assist me in getting through difficulties with work due to my depression and other needs. I get a lot of help...I'd get more if I really could :( but it's hard to make decisions on whats best or what others want from you to do and I feel I'm doing pretty good...kinda

etherize 04/30/2013

Glad to hear you're getting help from a counselor and case manager. Are you on meds, or willing to try them? That may help, too.

Relationships are really tough. Even when you're in the best mental health, they can make you feel crazy, cause lots of frustration and grief, etc. etc. Have you talked to your girlfriend about your worry that needs won't be met when you move in together? It's good to get that out in the open before you make the big leap to living together.

How supportive is she of your struggle with depression? Does she "get it"?

I understand how sometimes the littlest thing can send you in a downward spiral ... that's just the way depression (or social anxiety) is. And telling family and friends about it is really hard, because so many people are ignorant about mental health issues.

At least you have us. :-) Welcome to the site. Keep posting; I think you'll find a lot of support here.

{{{hugs}}}

muskrattiger 04/30/2013

i am sorry i had not read your other poast ...............i sometimes staway because sometimes it makes me more depresed to come in here so i take time off o come when ever i feel good enough to be here .......................i am realy happy you have goten your self some help just becaus i know how hard it can be to try and handel it on your owen i am happy you found that strength to go for help ............and didnt do like me and weaight till you landed in hospital ...............i will keep you in my prears ..................god bless
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fatalerror0x00 04/30/2013

I used to be on medication til I was forced to be done with them and things weren't much worse then normal. I decided it be best to not get to attached. Yes I have brought this up and that's where all the stress of this is really coming from it's not just me overthinking it's what we talked about and stirred up alot of feelings. My girlfriend is very supportive, the most supportive of me she's even through all this helping me more then ever with other issues like trying to get into college and finding the college I should go to. She's amazing even when things are at the worst it's just difficult but I won't leave her theres no abuse no real fighting we have disagreements like this but rarely yell at each other or say things we don't mean or anything like that

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