Hi! I'm new at this and just accepting/realizing that I might have a problem. I was wondering if anyone knows anything about situational depression/adjustment disorder or has experienced it. I haven't spoken to a therapist or anybody about this and I do not support definite self-diagnosing, but I have done a lot of research and I think that is what I'm experiencing.
I haven't felt like myself for the past four months or so. I just always feel unhappy and feel like I have to act or put on a face when I'm around most people. I'm having one of my better days today so how I make this sound may not explain completely the extent that I feel at times. Anyway, Nothing really gets me that excited anymore, it's hard to describe. I sort of feel like I'm keeping my body alive but not really living in it. But I also experienced a very large decrease in appetite and I definitlely do not eat enough, or at least I just get full faster and therefore eat smaller/less meals. People have told me that I have an eating problem, could this be related to how I'm feeling?
I think this is situational because I recently (about four months ago when this started) had to stage manage a show at my high school suddenly and I was very unprepared and just stressed out, which was natural. But I started to become sad a lot, kind of like how I feel now. But after the show ended, the feeling never went a way and just continued and got bigger and worse. Practically everyday now I feel bummed and bored all the time. I sort of understood where these feelings were coming from before because they had causes (which is why i think it's situational and not just depression which is usually without causes or reasons behind it). But now it's beyond the show I had to work on and now I have nothing to justify these feeling. Am I somewhere between situational depression and clinical depression? Again, I won't know for sure if I don't see a dr. but I was hoping that maybe somebody here could speak from experience and help me to possibly define what this is, if there is. I just know that there was a cause and now there’s no excuse for how I feel and I just wanna know what that’s all about.
I hope someone has some insight and thank youu!
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