Hello everyone. It's been a really long time since I've posted on here and as usual, I'm back because I just don't know where else to go. Recently, I've been feeling just so depressed and unhappy. I honestly have no idea why. I now live with my finance, who is simply wonderful. I feel that I am hurting him and hurting our relationship with the "mood swings" and depressed states I go through. I want to fix things, but for the past few days its been so bad, I just cant click out of it. I've not been on any meds and have been trying to eat healthier to help balance my body as well as form a more healthy lifestyle. I've also (I'm proud to say) cut back on drinking drastically. From my liter or wine a day to maybe 3 drinks a week. I am so scared that I am ruining things at home and that just makes me feel worse. I don't feel happy about almost anything, and have no motivation to do anything. I've tried to think about what could be making me feel this way, I feel so bad about snapping at him and my poor puppy. I also would feel like an idiot if I just tried acting happy and excited about things after being in such a slump, but also feel that that would be so fake. I just don't know what to do and feel so awful about myself. :(
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