A week now... a week without Tyrone, a week without Chippy a week of screaming with lack of sound. I am so ready to curl into a dark corner and disappear. I cant seem to keep myself together all by myself. Ive leaned so heavily on 2 of my friends this week that it's stressed them, and God above knows thats the last thing I wanted to do. I just.... I cannot stand the silence because I am toxic to myself. I feel like cutting again, feel like giving up, and feel like Im losing who I was.... I smiled just a couple days ago... what happened to that Jenn?
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