no man is worth that. I was with my ex husband for 7 years, that was through high school days, and he started abusing me at 3 months into the 7 years and every time he said sorry i took him back.. as years went on he started beating me more and more because he could get away with it.. till i was black and blue and on the side of the road, and had been punched in the stomach while pregnant and choked and burned with lighters.. My point is if a man doesn't treat you like the world LET him walk away and miss a great thing! he doesnt deserve you. It took me a long time to find someone who loves me that way. you gotta treat every day as if that person means the world too you and it keeps you motivated. But the guy who left you doesn't deserve you.

Thank you so much. I’m so glad that you finally found what you deserve. Everyone deserves happiness ❣️

Thank you

I can't stand people who use other's success stories as a weapon to put someone down. They are pathetic. Your ex should stay an ex. Delete and block him from everything. It will only continue and get worse.

Thank you I appreciate the love, help and support. That was in fact a lot for me to take in. He compared me to his grandmother who had severe depression and overcame it. The thing is, every human being is different. We’re all resilient to some certain factors more than others. Depression can not be compared. It’s onky an individuals struggle. Only that individual know how bad things are. It’s really unfortunate

>>I need to remove myself from this toxic situation and I just don’t have the strength or energy right now.

I think you will have to find or develop the strength. Do you actually think anyone else can remove you from it?? You are (probably) the only one. You will feel much better when you do.

The guy sounds like a real ass without any real humanity. Trust me you will be singing that song ' thank god for unanswered prayers ' in a years time. Im not being flippant

Thank you for sharing. If someone makes you want to hurt yourself, then that person should be avoided in any kind of relationship. You could still help that person, out of being a good human being, but being in a relationship won't work. A true relationship is a partnership walking together. Hopping on one leg, while carrying him, will only lead you to fall. A positive step is that he is your ex. You didn't fail the relationship, though Depression might scream it to you. A relationship takes two. A true failure would be to stay with someone that makes you want to hurt yourself. There are those that understand, and one that will walk with you, making you feel happy and not hurt. Heartbreak is hard, but the future holds better. I hope this made sense and helped at all. Thank you and God Bless.

Perhaps he is contributing to your depression and if you get away from him you may feel better.

His inconsistency is making you feel flawed in so many ways that you are starting to hate yourself, and when it gets to that point you need to let go. I know that feeling Ive been there it lasted 5 years on/off of him leaving and coming back, and let me tell you it will kill you if you keep allowing. Im not going to talk about him but Im going to talk about you, and what you are worth. You are a strong woman, you are beautiful, you are amazing, you are a Queen, you are not a mans option nor his doormat. What you have to do is cry for however long you need to cry, watch sad movies, listen to sad songs, sleep all day, but after that you get up and you hold your head up high. NO MAN IS WORTH IT!!! This is coming from a person who was depressed over a man for 5 years, in'/out of the hospital for suicide thoughts, so please trust me when I tell you this. If you can have the strength to let go of him you will meet "The reason" why you couldn't settle for him. A real man wont have his woman confused. There are so many men out here who will treat you right but you have to see that you are worth love and refuse to settle for anything less. He is getting in your mind and trying to destroy you. Cut all ties with him and communication. Seek God, trust him, depend on him and he will bring the man of your dreams into your life but you have to get it together. The sooner you let go the faster you can start over. As long as you are in this state dont date anyone out of loneliness or revenge, you must get your mind back on track so that you can move forward with your life. It will be okay, i know it seems impossible but it will be okay I PROMISE. "Weeping endures for a night, but JOY comes in the morning"!!! I will be praying for you girl!!! I love you whoever you are!!!!! Feel free to message me ! YOU CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHICH STRENGTHENS YOU !

You said he’s a pro athlete. I mean no disrespect, but sometimes they live in a different type of world. I know a couple of football players and they have huge egos and think there gods gift. I was with my ex for 9 years had a kid and she just walked away from everything. I was really messed up but I had to raise my son so that kept me from going off the deep end. She was a paramedic. Some of them have that athlete ego as well. Just take your time and help yourself.

Hello, I am sorry to hear about your breakup as well as depression. Thanks for being strong. When we are in relationships it's important that the partner is understanding and supports the other. I am glad that you are taking the necessary steps to feel better. Please don't harm yourself. I would like for you to rub ice cubes on your arms and put rubber bands on your arms and pop them when you feel you want to cut. It seems you need time away from the relationship and some relationships can contribute to stress. Please try some activites such as, going out, exercise, yoga, writing. These relieve stress. Best wishes!