Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
When things go wrong, regardless whether they're my fault or not, I tend to be abusive or blameful of myself. Thing is, I'm really good at hiding from my co-workers and what few friends I have down here. But when I'm alone, especially at night, that's when the demons come out.
Every night before I sleep, I say the following like a mantra: I want to die, I need to die, I deserve to die, please kill me. I've said it for years now. It's rare that I miss it, sometimes I need it to go to sleep. My therapist(s) have never been able to get me to stop. I'm not sure why I'm confessing it here. I guess it's just that it's Friday, and I'm lonely.
Every night before I sleep, I say the following like a mantra: I want to die, I need to die, I deserve to die, please kill me. I've said it for years now. It's rare that I miss it, sometimes I need it to go to sleep. My therapist(s) have never been able to get me to stop. I'm not sure why I'm confessing it here. I guess it's just that it's Friday, and I'm lonely.
Have you ever tried repeating somethign more positive...perhaps after you repeat all the death stuff?
I know it can be so hard to break even a bad habit, but sometimes if you can insert something a bit more positive in there, it can help...