I sent my reply via PM.

I do hope that you are able to find some help here.

Gentle hugs

we all will die but the idea that having the will to die is one that I no longer entertain....you too need to not entertain that thought....it is corrupted thinking....it is driven by many things that counseling can help you uncover and recover from....hope this is helpful hugs

You have my friendship. And I am sure there are others here as well. Talk to us. I don't feel you deserve to die. Why do you feel that way?

Fluterify - You receive a lot of help here. People always make it a point to respond to your posts, your journals, and send you hugs. Yet you never seem to respond to anyone or thank them for their concerns. You also never seem to take anyone's advice to get help. People offer you an ear when you are in a bad place and you don't always respond. It's hard to make friends when it is a one way street. All you seem to want to do is talk about dying instead of receiving the help offered and helping yourself.

There are plenty of us willing to be your friend and help, but you have to be willing to meet us halfway.

BlueYonderDreams you are exactly right. People go out of their way to help her. I think the reason people are starting to view it as attention seeking is because she does nothing to get help or accept any help. She also doesn't care about all of the people she is making worry about her. You are right, it's a one way street.

Fluterify we think you need more than this site can give you. We are here for support. But, if you will not even consider or try to accept any suggestions there is honestly nothing else we can do.

I do listen and try things suggested when I am down I don't have the energy to say if it worked or not and when I am well I forget to. Sorry!

I have applied for inpatient treatment.

thank you for the feed back!!!!

I do hope that you get inpatient, and that you are able to benefit from it.

Got in!

That's great! Let us know how it's going.

That's great, fluterify. I wish you the best! Keep us updated!

You don't deserve to die...I do!
Hope you can get help without dangerous big pharma meds....people need to get to the root of the problem not just polish the surface.