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Seeint therapist tomorrow with HMO I hate

DJfromColorado
DJfromColorado
So okay I have to go see my therapist tomorrow. I have not made up my mind yet if I will continue to see her. See the clinical nurse thinks I am making up medical issues like broncittis and burns for attention. Sorry to say I am not-DUH.

What has me bothered is 11 Months and 2 days ago I was severly injured by a dentist, I already had dental anxiety but now have trouble trusting docs and dens.

I want to let my therapist know I am really upset by the appointment she gave me with the nurse, I am already looking a little crazy to the group, but I don't want to appear insane of hostile.

I have talked it out with myself in my journal so she can see I not trying "get attention" or become hostile, but it bothers me on how I should handle this.

I know I should be open and honest, but they think I am only there for attention and I don't want to fuel the fire. I skipped out of the IOP group therapy Friday and I have made up my mind I am not going back. Two reasons, 1 it interfers with work and 2 it is my little protest to this judegement.

I just don't want to say or do something I will altter regret.
DJfromColorado
DJfromColorado
I also want to add something I guess. I don't feel suicidal, but this matter is what drove me to this site. I feel like a rabbit driven into a corner. I have no real support group but my med team, and now this site. But I feel hopless, like giving in, like I want a restart button, an undo key, something!!! Do I tell her this or will she take this as a another act for attention. I just started the prozack three days ago, I don't think I can wait four weeks for it to start working.
Sorry to compalin so much guys, but I know someone in cyberspace can offer some shred of help.
Thanks and hugs all around
starfish
starfish
People can burn themselves to get attention, and unfortunately, sometimes they do - but I think it is a bit impossible to get bronchitis for attention, unless you exposed yourself purposefully to something that brings it on.
Just keep doing your best to talk it out, and not take it personally. If your anxiety cranks you up, and you get upset, that might be why they think you're just trying to get attention - when you don't get it, you have a tizzy.
So do your best not to have a tizzy. I know it can be extrememly difficult when people, even the medical professionals, don't understand. Sometimes even they, don't.
deleted_user
deleted_user
the therapist should not think you are making this up. If she/he is, they are violating professional ethics and should be reported. If that is the case seek a different therapist. The climical nurse also should have better ethics, but may not. Pay no attention the the nurse behind the curtain. Ask the therapist strait out if that is her/his attitude. If so, a different clinic altogether is called for.
Mark
DJfromColorado
DJfromColorado
Thanks crash let me say DUH I never thought of another clinc. Although the whole broncittis thing got way out of control, I was sick for three bad weeks and several more after that and I ended up leaving my pcp and she the nurse, pointed it out as one of her points. I will use that as a last resort before out to the public sector, which I was very close to doing.
Last July with the dentist, I just left I did not call him back until showed up to obtain back my personal x rays i had given him. Therefore, even though I don't want to sometimes, I try to give people a second chance.
deleted_user
deleted_user
a nice sentiment second chances, but not at the expense of your own mental health. Hang in there and really, ask the therapist about their personal view, . Cause a clinic with attitudes like that is a suicide trap. When I was in the hospital for 63 days following my accident in 95, A nurses aide called me a whiner becase I was complaining about sitting in my wheelchair to long. I had had a broken hip in the accident and it hurt so bad I actually cried. I am a mans man and pain is something I just tolerate. But this was virtual torture. One of my sisters was a nurses aid in a different hospital. She talked to the head nurse of the floor. I got a personal apology from the na the very next day.
starfish
starfish
If you have a choice with your HMO, can you try another place and see if you like it better without cutting the other one off? Sounds to me, if you have a choice, you might want to change. I was thinking you didn't have a choice...
DJfromColorado
DJfromColorado
The problem is if I Call another clinic this clinic will know since they are all under one roof so to say. Therefore they would see their thinkings proved right.