Don’t be too hard on yourself. Depression is an illness not a choice. It can take away our motivation and then leave us feeling like we failed. You did the best you could with how you were feeling. There’s always a way to rebound, even if it takes awhile.

Hello there. I read your post. I can empathize with what you are going through. I completed a Master's Degree program and I understand the stress it can put on you especially the online classes that are condensed. One option to consider is researching accommodations under the Americans with Disabilities Act for Depression and Anxiety. There may be something there that can help you in this situation. I wish you the best of luck and happiness as you move forward in your Master's program :-)

I already have an appointment with the accommodations office Tuesday morning to talk over the phone because I'm in the online program. So that is already happening, but if I lose funding because of this class, it doesn't even matter for future classes.
And my extension was through the school, not the prof. So it doesn't matter what I do. She will post my grade tomorrow.

(((((((Flynn)))))). I’m sorry, I know how hard it feels to keep doing your best and to still feel disappointed and mad with yourself. And everyone is right, it is the illness not you, Flynn. Triple hugs.

I shouldn't say anything because I'm the worst when it comes to doing more than I feel good with but this is a good time to dump that masters program. Who needs all that work when you're feeling depressed? . They say that if you're depressed you should drop all the have-tos – but I'm wondering if it isn't a good idea to do that a lot of the time. It works for me. I don't know the situation but there are all kinds of reasons for dropping school- they've got to hear it all the time. Just say , I can't do this right now, I have too much on my plate. That's enough. Take care of you. Let financial aid rot.

Find someone willing to complete it for you...

Just saying!

Um.... I guess I've heard of people having extensions due to ill health???

I guess it just comes down to acceptance, ill health deprives many people of many things, it's not very nice I know, but as the government therapist wrote to me "I have to accept my limitations".

Why not find employment or activities you enjoy to pass your life doing? Why put yourself in scenarios where the demands are great. They tell me in dbt that in depression you've got to face what your avoiding... Well why pursue things which give you a huge list of things to avoid?

I don't know. Just a few ideas. Really very sorry to hear you didn't complete what you wanted to complete, I'm pretty sure that there are extensions for ill health so please do explore that before you abandon all hope

Please do not be angry with yourself. you are doing the best you can with an illness that is causing you a lot of difficulty.
I know schools have a number of resources from counselling to help with note taking and writing assignments. it is time to start using those resources to your full advantage. go to the disabilities office and get help. use this as a learning opportunity. they may even be able to assist in getting you a pass in this course. you can even get extra time for exams and write them in a quiet place with no distractions. I know this because I had to swallow my pride, let go of my ego and get help when I was in school. the resources are top notch and helped a lot.

I will not give up on getting my masters. It has been my goal since high school, and to be a counselor I have to have it and that is my ultimate goal. If I quit now, I'll never forgive myself.
I already had a 2 week extension and I still didn't get everything done. So yeah.
I found out today that I failed the class, so that sucks. But it is what it is. I think the unknown is what scared me. Now that I know, I can deal with it.